Faith

Thursday, December 30, 2010

*.* The Closing End of the Year 2010 *.*

Oh wow! I'm actually studying for my Management Accounting understanding test! hoho~ (sarcastic laugh)

What to do? On the first day of school after the 2 weeks holidays, I am slammed with the test of a subject which I totally haaaaaate! arrrgghh...

I wonder who is that idiot who put the UT right on the first day of school after the new year, thinking that the students will actually study during the new year huh?

Moreover, I really don't have the time to study over the public holidays, cos I'll be attending Ching Kit & Alexis' wedding on the 1st & 2nd Jan. woohoo! I can't wait for their wedding~ LOL

Yep... That's why today is the only best day that I can actually study for the test. What to say when it comes to my weakest subject? oh man...

Anyway, away from all my lamentations... The year 2010 is coming to an end!!! waaahh!!! Time reaaaaaally flies!

With a blink of an eye, walah! Bye bye 2010! Hello 2011!

This year had been a great year! What left me the most impact should be my internship @ Amara Sanctuary Resort because it took up 6 months of my whole year of 2010. Seriously speaking, I'm so glad that it is over~ :D

I'm kinda looking forward to 2011. Wondering how will my embarkation of my role as a DGL be like?

In addition, I'll be graduating from RP by March next year.

University? I have no idea about it yet.

I'm also looking forward to take up courses such as driving, vocal, dance!

For now, I'll just concentrate on my final 2 months of school in RP, and also to perform well for the upcoming Danzation happening next week on 7th & 8th Jan '11!

It's time to think of my new year resolutions once again! :D

FAITH

“A new year is unfolding –

like a blossom with petals curled tightly concealing the beauty within.”

I need Jesus @ | 9:00 PM

Friday, December 24, 2010

*.* The True Meaning of Christmas *.*

Christmas is here!!! I really do love this festive season a lot, but sadly, the whole idea of Christmas is twisted in this new commercial setting...

Many non-believers will think that Christmas will mean....

Santa Claus
Some with think that Christmas is about receiving lots & lots gifts...
Some will think that it is a period for tons of shopping!!!
Others will think that it is a period to decorate their house with nice decorations...

Sadly, not many people actually the true meaning of Christmas.

Christmas is the day to commemorate Jesus Christ birth. The day when God sent his one and only beloved son, down to this world.
I hope that one day, people will come to understand what Christmas really is.

Today's family gathering was really awesome. A time to get together, a time to bond. This is also what I feel Christmas is about. A time to share this wonderful day with your non-Christian relatives.

Lastly, MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!!! :D
FAITH
'Today is the day that the Lord has made,
I will rejoice and be glad in it!"

I need Jesus @ | 11:42 PM

Monday, December 13, 2010

*.* Sore Throat! *.*

Arrghhhh.... My sore throat sux!

Oh man! This morning, I was still able to speak a little, but I don't know why would my voice changed when I stepped into school.

Hence, I suffered quite a fair bit during lesson today.

I couldn't share much of my ideas in the team's discussion... I was unable to show active participation in class... Worst of all, I wasn't even able to present during the 3rd meeting! Gosh! My team mates had to cover for me. Thank you teammates! :D

The funny thing is that my voice is coming back now. Perhaps the environment does affect my voice...

I have a feeling that I might miss school for a day or two. Well, I regretted going to school today, maybe I won't regret it tomorrow if I don't attend lesson! (oops!)

I just need ample rest. A day should do, but there's dance tomorrow! oh man...

Holidays are in just less than a week! Dear throat, please recover soon!

FAITH
'Many things always come unexpected~'

I need Jesus @ | 10:50 PM

Sunday, December 12, 2010

*.* In His Time *.*

oh man... I'm having a really terrible sore throat... :(

I was already feeling the soreness a few days ago, but my voice suddenly 'broke' yesterday when I was at Shi Jia's house.

The worst part?

I was on duty today as the support singer. Not only was I unable to reach the high notes, I began to cough real badly when I started singing 'Your Name'.
Omg! In front of the whole congregation, *cough* *cough* *cough*
It was bad... Really bad...

Well, I did pray to God for his healing to be upon me. However, I believe everything happen for a reason. He has his own time for everything. Sometimes we may think that now is the time, but to him, there's an even better time!

So ya... some people might ask why God didn't heal my sore throat, I will say that He has His own reasons for not doing so.

Anyway, Grace & I headed off to meet Shi Jia yesterday after support singing prac with Alvin & Terence.
It was a time to cut my hair, thread the eyebrows, and dye our hair!!! XD

I totally love my hair cut. My hair feels much lighter and thinner now! HEE!

Threading my eyebrows was a whole new experience, but it was great! I would say that threading eyebrows is better than shaving or plucking (ouch!). It hurts a little when you thread, but it's fast & efficient! I like!

My hair colour didn't turn out as the colour I wanted... It is also not evenly covered all over my head. Hence, I'll be re-dying my hair another day with my new colour 'Cassis Berry'! woohoo~

Oh ya! Hannah's here in Singapore, at my house now. I can totally tell that my brother is so so so happy! I kept on having that smile on his face. :)

Oh well, now all I hope is for my throat to heal. I'm not even sure whether will I be going to school tomorrow or not. It all depends on my throat, or else I will not be able to present properly tomorrow...

FAITH
*We may always think that we are right in certain things,
but only God knows what is RIGHT*

I need Jesus @ | 10:04 PM

Saturday, December 11, 2010

*.* Back on the Beat, Dancing~ *.*

After attending today's dance lesson, I realized that I have not actually lost my passion and interest towards dance! It was quite a refreshing feeling really to be back on my feet, dancing away to the beat~ :D

Dance has always been my passion ever since I was a little. I have been dancing for around 13 years of my life!!!
I've also explored the different types of genres. From Chinese dance to a little bit of contemporary to bboy & hiphop. Well, I'm still exploring more genres now. :)

I'm gonna dye my hair tomorrow! woohoo!
I'm also going to trim my fringe and thin my hair, thread my eyebrows too! weeeeeee!!!
Cannot wait!!! hohohoho!

I hope tomorrow's makeover will turn out good~ XD

FAITH
"TGIS! Thank God it's Saturday!"

I need Jesus @ | 12:28 AM

Tuesday, December 07, 2010

*.* A brand new perspective, a brand new start *.*

"Oh God, show to me your plan for my life~"

I've decided! I've come to a whole new decision and perspective. :)

After all those situations, I've decided not to enter into any relationship as for now. I'm deciding to appreciate the wonders of 'singlehoodness' first before I come down to a plan to settle down into a relationship.

After talking to some of my close buddies, I realised that I'm still at an immature age to get into any relationship. Even though I have never been into one, but I'll grasp this new perspective of mine. To wait upon God's time for the 'right' one to come. :)

I know that now is just simply not the 'right' time.

It's actually a rather refreshing feeling, I must say. This morning, I woke up having a whole new feeling, like a glow within and outside of me. I just don't know how to explain that feeling.

I've never thought about such a thing before and this is the first. I realised that I'm always rushing into things, that's why I caused myself to be hurt all the time. I have learned to be patient and to wait for God to work in my life there and then.

I'm not sure how long I'll be having this mentality, but I'm sure for now, that's the way it is~

FAITH
"Come What May"

I need Jesus @ | 12:36 PM

Friday, December 03, 2010

*.* The Final Phase of my Teens *.*

Today is the day that shouts "I AM 19 YEARS OLD!!!"

This also signifies that it is the final phase of my teenage years.

Sad sad...

Anyway, I just wanna say a BIG BIG "THANK YOU" to everyone for their well wishes! I really really really appreciate it even for that few words "Happy Birthday".

I would also like to thank my church friends (Kang, Ching Kit, Alvin, Grace aka TV, Sharon Ho, Sharon Chan, Joshua, Grace Arul, Samuel Tee, Sheryl, Clarence & Benedict) for celebrating my birthday just now!
It was simply fun & awesome! Above all, thank you all for the time of bonding!

God had really blessed me with so many people who care for me~ The most important part is that I would like to thank God for this birthday as it reminds me of the day, 19 years ago, where He brought me to this world. He is my creator, He is my Father!

I give thanks for this day and I will remember it in my heart!

LOVE LOVE LOVE you all!!! XD

I need Jesus @ | 11:59 PM

Wednesday, December 01, 2010

*.* Trials in Life *.*

This morning, I woke up thinking about it again. I guess I cannot release that thought so soon as yet.

I realized that I'm quite a good actress. Feeling painful inside, but acting in front of my family members as if nothing had happened before.

The fact is that my heart is still hurting...

It's like a knife plunged down into my heart, and I am trying with all my might to pull out the blade, but it hurts too much to do so. Some of my dear friends are also trying to help me to pull out this knife, but none of us has the strength to do so.
Only Jesus can help me to pull out this blade from my heart. However because it will hurt too much to remove the blade all at one go, Jesus will have to pull out the blade inch-by-inch so that I won't feel that much pain. Every little inch pulled out would still cause me to tear, but I can overcome this pain.
When this blade is finally out one day, there will still be a hole in my heart. That is when only Jesus can do the healing process.

I have to learn how to let go, but I know that this time it is not as easy as it seems because I cannot the fact that I have to meet the person face-to-face more often in the future.

God, please guide me. Please give me strength to go through this turmoil.

Thank you for sending angels to comfort me.

Perhaps it is just simply not the right time for this to happen. I will wait patiently.

In you I put my trust, Lord.

FAITH
"The only way to learn strong faith is to endure great trials."

I need Jesus @ | 12:53 PM