Faithful Heartz

Bye Bye 2011~

2011-12-31T18:09:00.005+08:00

In approximately 1.5 hours later, the year 2011 will come to an end and that will spark the start of the new year 2012.

The year 2011 has been a year with many ups and downs. I would also describe it as a very eventful year. The first event that sparks the beginning of 2011 was Ching Kit & Alexis' wedding which was so awesomely fun because it totally felt like prom night!

There were many other people's weddings as well. It seems that this is the period whereby a lot of people are getting married.

The year 2011 is also a year with many changes.

- I graduated from Polytechnic with a Diploma in Hotel & Hospitality Management

- I entered SIM Global (RMIT University) taking a Bachelor of Business Management and even attained one year of exemption

- I became a DGL of GIGGLES

- I grew to appreciate the friends that I have to a whole new level

- I began to pray more often and be serious in prayers

- I can see that God has worked in my life for the past year

The list goes on...

My life hasn't been perfect or easy for the past one year. However, I would say that my life has been blessed.

I thank God for my family~

Papa

Mummy

Hobart (Big bro)

Darius (2nd Bro)

And my other relatives~

I also want to thank God for GIGGLEs, though it wasn't easy leading this bunch of kids...

And most importantly, I want to thank God for my favourite girls, RIBS!!! <3 <3 <3

This has been the year whereby I really learn to appreciate friendship and love because of RIBS. I'm really so happy to have these girls with me in my life.

This whole year has been filled with so much fun because of them. Plus, we have snapped sooooooooooooooo many lovely, funny and fabulous photos together! :D

I really love the people in my life that God has given me. More importantly, thank you God for loving me so dearly and blessing me with such wonderful people.

My life wouldn't been so awesome without God in my life.

Now, I'm just looking forward to the new year ahead with hopes that it'll be a better year. I do foresee challenges coming my way, but I do not pray for an easy way out but just for strength from God to carry me through. :)

Bye bye 2011 and Hello 2012! HAPPY NEW YEAR~~~ :DDD

Holiday Mood

2011-11-23T13:35:00.005+08:00

It's been a looong time since I've blogged! I'm bored and since I've not blog for quite some time, I feel that it's time to update this blog.

Well, it's the holidays now!!! yea... as usual, it can be pretty boring and slack because I have nothing much to do.

It has been 3 weeks through my holidays and I have another 5-6 more weeks of holidays. Shiok max but at the same time, it can be boring max! LOL

For the past 3 weeks, I have been spending a lot of my time watching dramaaaass!!! XD

Dramas are so addictive! After watching one episode, you will be "craving" to watch the next. And after you've finished the entire drama, you'll want to watch another drama.

ok... At least I told myself to sleep by 12am every night, or else I'll be watching one episode after another through the night and not sleep.

The very first drama that I watched was "Boys Over Flowers"!!! Love it to the max!!!

It's really awesome especially when the show is filled with cute guys. LOL

Boys Over Flowers (Korean Version)

After watching it, I realised that this particular drama has a Taiwanese version and Japanese version! So I decided to watch them both to compare all the 3 versions.

Meteor Garden! (Taiwanese Version)

Acted by the very well-known F4 themselves.

Hana Yori Dango (Japanese Version)

I like this version because it's very animated and funny~

After watching part 1, I proceeded to watch part 2.

And they had part 3 also!

After watching all the 3 versions, I cannot conclude which is the best.

Boys Over Flowers: The guys in this version are the most handsome! Whenever I watch this drama, I'll be mesmerised by it. Plus, it's the most emotional drama among the three versions.

Meteor Garden: It's very original and it's cute! Moreover, it's acted by the original F4!

Hana Yori Dango: It's the funniest, cutest and I love the main 2 characters in this version the best! Plus, it shows the entire story from start to finish, though they cut off some parts from the manga.

All in all, I love them all! :D

Now, I'm currently watching 'Secret Garden'. It seems like a pretty nice show.

wahhh... I'm really addicted to dramas! But I cannot find anything else to do. Moreover, I have so many dramas that I want to watch, so I'm trying to finish each drama in order to move on to the next. :P

A lot of people's birthdays are coming up. Recently, I attended Nelson's 21st birthday celebration at Aranda Country Club. Next, will be Sharon's. Then in January 2012, it'll be Karen's, Grace's and Alvin's 21st! wah... So many to attend! I need some money to get pressies for next year already! Talking of which, 2012 is just a month plus away! Time flies man!

I did think about finding a part-time job. But me being me, I'm a little lazy. I'll still try to find a job if possible. I hope that I can find a suitable and flexible job. I want to earn some money for myself so that my parents would not have to worry so much about finance.

I'm turning 20 soon in one week's time. It's almost time for me to say goodbye to teens. :'(

Youth chalet is just a week away! and and and... I cannot wait for RIBs retreat at the end of this year! woohoo! oh ya! X'mas is coming soon! HOLIDAY MOOD!!! :DDD

My Heart, My Precious Treasure

2011-10-12T00:34:00.003+08:00

I want my heart to grow and become more beautiful over time.

I don't want it to be broken and battered any more.

I want to put my focus on God.

I want a man that is willing to fight hard to win this precious treasure of mine, my heart.

Precious Gem

2011-10-11T21:13:00.002+08:00

"The greatest treasure that a girl has is her heart. It is like a precious gem growing and becoming more beautiful with time. It is also the best and most valuable gift that she can ever give to the one man that is meant to receive it.

Therefore girls, do not allow your heart to be battered and broken. Guard this precious treasure of yours for it is the great gift that God has given you."

(Adapted from 'When God writes your love story' - Leslie Ludy)

The book 'When God writes your love story' has touched my heart deeply. Then I came upon the part that Leslie Ludy wrote about the 'precious pearl'.

Hence I reflected on it, and put up the above status onto my facebook wall. I hope that it can serve as a reminder to all the girls that each one of us have that precious treasure that God has given to us~ ;)

A New Perspective of LOVE

2011-10-07T13:10:00.004+08:00

Yes! I'm going to talk about 'love' again!

I know that I've been rather lovey dovey recently, but isn't LOVE awesome? haha~ :D

With many recent happenings, it challenged my perspective of love such as the various situations that my friends had gone through, and even my own situation.

On Wednesday, I was heading off to dance lesson. That day, Grace had work so she headed directly from her workplace to the destination. My dad was unable to send me to dance due to work. Hence, I had to make my way to the destination myself.

It so happens that I forgot to bring my earpiece for my iPod! What to do?! No songs, no entertainment to keep me busy during the bus journey.

Then I thought, why not spend this time to talk to God? And I did so.

During the time of waiting for the bus to arrive to the entire bus journey to the dance studio, I was spending time talking to God.

Some people will be thinking "You crazy ah? Talking to God? How can you even talk to Him when you cannot even hear Him speak?"

Come on, try it, and you'll know it. ;D

Thus, I spent the entire journey talking to Him like a friend. Then I began to talk to Him about love. I shared with Him my every feelings and thoughts. I shared with Him the people I love and how important they are in my life. I shared with Him the turmoil that I had gone through.

He knew all these though.

Then I began to figure things out. As I reflected, I began to understand what love truly means.

I realised that love is sacrificial. If you truly love someone, you'll always, no matter what circumstance, put the person before you. The moment you put yourself before the person, that will not be called 'love'. To me, that will be called 'self-centeredness'. You love yourself more than others.

I realised that if you love someone, you'll care a lot about the well-being of that person. You will care about the person's health, work/studies, relationships with people, and even his/her walk with God.

I realised that love produces joy. With love, there will be joy. With hatred, there will be anger.

I don't get one part then. Everyone wants to be happy isn't it? Then why hate one another and be upset, when you can love one another and be happy? I know that it is not as simple as what I say, but seriously, why hate? Because of the pain the other person has inflicted upon you? Honestly, how long will you hate that person? Forever? Are you sure that you want to be FOREVER upset and never be joyful? I don't think so. Everyone wants to be happy. Therefore there's something called 'FORGIVENESS'. If you are able to forgive the other person, trust me, you'll see joy and gladness.

Forgiving someone is not easy though. That's why you'll need God to help you with this process.

I realised that LOVE is the most important aspect in my life. Love will be about building relationships with the people around me. Love will be about building my relationship with God. Love is God. Therefore God is my everything.

After talking with God, I felt very much refreshed and felt pretty good. I knew that God was listening and was speaking to me. He helped me to reflect on a lot of things. He helped me to understand why He made me go through so many tough times. I had cried, I had lamented, I had angered. God delivered me through those times.

The result? Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, gentleness, faithfulness and self-control.

Therefore, trust God. He will never fail you because LOVE NEVER FAILS. ;)

Recent Happenings

2011-10-07T12:32:00.003+08:00

My first semester of university has just ended yesterday, and now, it is time for me to prepare for the upcoming exams. Talking about exams, I have not taken them for 3 years already!

I'm going to say this again. Time really flies! I mean it really does! One semester just done like that and a few months later, the year 2011 will be coming to an end!

Anyway, a couple of things had happened recently.

1. It is official that I have gotten an exemption of one year from University! That means that instead of graduating in 2014, I'll be graduating in 2013!

When I first received the news, I was neither elated nor depressed. It was a rather neutral feeling. The good part is that I can save up on a year of school fees which will sum up to about $12k. The bad part is that I have to venture into the working world sooner! =x

2. I've decided to take up Human Resource as my minor instead of my initial choice of Marketing.

It took me some time to come up with the decision because the rest of my kakis chose HR as their choice. Hence I had a little discussion with my mum and came down to the final decision. Something that she said made sense.

HR: People have to be nice to you.

Marketing: You have to be nice to others.

LOL! At once, I decided to choose HR as my choice. :P Well, I do not regret my choice though. As I know myself well, I don't like being alone. If I were to choose Marketing, I can foresee myself not enjoying school life in the future. HR seems like a good choice! :D

3. Dance

Grace & I joined SIM Dreamwerkz Hip Hop Junior Team! Initially we did tell one another that we did not want to join any clubs in SIM due to our commitments. Apparently, Dreamwerkz does not require us much commitment. It like a course that you take in a dance school.

Dance has been pretty fun. Having not danced for quite some time, I find it quite enjoyable. Moreover, we only have lessons once a week for just one hour of lesson. Not only that, we can learn different types of genres, depending on our instructor, Allegra.

For now, we have gone through a total of 3 lessons already. Another 9 lessons to go, and we have a presentation to do on the final lesson.

I'm back on the groove man! :D

4. Being a DGL

A couple of months ago, I was lamenting about how hard it is to be a leader. Now, I still think that it's hard, but honestly, I'm beginning to enjoy this role. I'm amazed at how God works. Some how or rather, though the kids maybe naughty at times, but at the end of the day, they will put a smile on your face lighting up your day.

I still have struggles with my role as a DGL. However something that Ching Kit said during Koinonia made a lot of sense. He said that leaders are not made leaders. They learn to be leaders.

It is a learning process to be a leader. I believe that this will be a fruitful journey that God has prepared for me. ;)

5. Personal Life

There was a period of time, not too long ago, when I was frequently upset and moody. I felt that I was facing a trial and it was a very difficult journey for me. I was wrestling with my own feelings and trying to learn how to trust fully in God. I kept praying and praying everyday asking God to help me and guide me.

In my previous post, I mentioned about taking an emotional break. I believe that it has worked for me. Through that break, I've learned to really focus on God and my own life. I was often affected by others around me.

Now, I don't know why, I feel exceptionally happy every single day. Has God delivered me? Have I overcome my trial? I believe that He has.

Though I expect more trials to come in the future, but I know that as long as I put my faith in God, He will deliver me.

6. Prayers

I believe in prayers.

Nowadays, I write down my prayers in books when I pray during my quiet time. I find it more efficient as I will be able to focus better and be less distracted. On top of that, I can always read through my prayers like reading a diary.

There was one day that I was feeling rather bored not knowing what to do. Then I looked through my cupboard when I found the prayers that I had written many months ago. So I began to read through them. While reading through them, I began to see how much God has worked in my life. Some of the prayers that I had prayed were answered without me realising! It's pretty amazing~

For example, there was a period of time when my dad had a medical condition causing him excruciating pain. I kept praying for God's healing to be upon him as it hurt me to see him in pain.

I forgot about this incident until I read that prayer that day. I knew that God has healed him.

There are times that we neglect God and forget about the wonderful thing that He has done for us.

Let us not forget that God is always with us, and we should always turn to Him at all times.

2 weeks of exam break, 1 week of exams, then 2 months of holidays! Woohoo! Cannot wait for November to come~ Then there will be RIBS retreat, family vacation, etc! Yipee! :D

Gonna Take a "Break"

2011-09-06T19:04:00.002+08:00

I'm going to take a "break"!

Yea... I hope that I can take a wonderful break like this kitty is having. :P

haha! The picture is placed there just for fun, and because I find it cute! :D

The break that I'm talking about is not a physical break. I still can handle my daily life activities such as school life and church activities as for now.

The break that I'm referring to is an emotional break. Having "suffered" for so many months, I've finally decided already. I've grown tired about the constant cycle that I've been for so many years. Enough is enough! I'm going to take a "break" for now until I'm ready.

My hope for this break will be that I can overcome and break out of this cycle. On top of that, I hope that I can strengthen the emotional part of me. I no longer want to be so emotional any more. I don't want to get affected by people that much any more. But of course, I'm not saying that I will no longer show care and concern to the people around me. I will still do so, but I want to build up my heart and make it stronger. My life is my life, he's not my life.

During this break, I also want to learn to put my focus on God. Grow in my walk with Him.

I don't know how will things go in time to come, but whatever it is, I uplift all these things to God. He shall take the lead.

FAITH

*I want to be the precious gem that I am meant to be~*

Serving God Is Not Easy

2011-08-29T18:48:00.003+08:00

Yesterday during sermon, Pastor Soh was sharing that serving God is not an easy thing to do. The sermon was referred to the text 'Jeremiah 15:15-21', about how Jeremiah suffered for trying to serve God and was complaining to God for all the troubles that he was going through.

Serving God is really tough. I'm already going through it now. The pain and stress of being a discipleship group leader.

It pains you when your kids are unappreciative of one another.

It pains you when your kids disrespect you.

It pains you when your kids do not bond with one another.

It pains you when your kids are not living according to God's ways.

It pains you when your kids do not understand the amount of effort you're putting in for them.

It pains you when your kids misbehave.

The list goes on...

Being a leader is not an easy job. Moreover, being a leader in God's ministry is even harder.

But I know that God gave me the role of a leader for a reason. He knew that I could take up this role and do a good job.

He never guarantee that the path of a leader will be an easy one, but He did promise me that He will walk me through this journey. It is through such trials that I can grow stronger in faith in God.

'From Suffering to Strength' was the sermon title yesterday. I felt that God was speaking to me through it. I maybe suffering now, but I know that if I learn to depend on God, I will gain strength. With that strength, I will be able to fight the good fight and finish the race that He had prepared for me.

Therefore, I wanna encourage other leaders who are also serving in God's ministry. Though being a leader is tough, but press on, because God saw leadership potential in you. He gave you the role of a leader for a reason. Don't give up~ :)

FAITH

*From Suffering to Strength*

Start of My University Life

2011-07-17T19:50:00.003+08:00

I've started university already! So now, I'm known as an undergraduate. Wow! Can you believe how fast time has flown? I'm already in university! Till now, it is still a little hard to accept the fact, but I'll get used to it soon.

My first day of school was on Thursday, 14th July 2011. The whole experience of university life is so much different from my polytechnic life.

1. No more class-based lesson. All lectures.

2. Class size is no longer 20+ students. Now, class size is 300+ students.

3. No more daily presentations.

4. Friends are harder to make due to the large class size.

5. You have to form your group by yourself.

6. School hours will last only for 3 hours. (depending on the number of lectures you have for the day)

And a lot more other differences...

Well, I must say that I'm starting to enjoy my new university life. Making new friends, learning new knowledge, adapting to a new environment. It is another step ahead, and another change to make in life.

The only thing about university is that you have to depend a lot of yourself to study. Therefore, I have to be disciplined when it comes to studies. Everything you learn from your lectures, you have to go home and self-study.

This time, I don't wanna slack any more. Time to "chiong" studies! Cos this maybe my final lap of my education.

There is still so much more to come for my university life. Let's wait and see~

FAITH

*It's almost the final lap. Time to put in effort!*

God Works in the Little Things in Our Lives

2011-07-10T23:39:00.004+08:00

Just to share something I experienced today...

God answered my prayer twice!!! How awesome is that!

The situation was that this morning, both Grace and I were heading off to church. Grace had to reach Chong Pang at 9.15am for breakfast with her DG, while I had to reach church at 9.30am to meet up with my DG.

We left the house slightly late, and ended up missing the bus. In the end, we waited for quite some time for the next one to come. Grace, at that time, was feeling very frustrated as she knew that she was going to be late. I could totally sense the frustration within her.

Therefore, I decided to say a simple prayer and ask for the bus to come. I told God in my prayer that I don't want Grace to be late, and I was feeling a little guilty for leaving the house late and that she had to wait for me to leave the house together. Then this verse rang in my head, "Matthew 21:22 - If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer." After that, a voice in my head asked me, "Do you believe?" I said "yes!"

When I opened my eyes after saying the prayer, you know what happened? YES! The bus appeared right in front of my eyes. How amazing was that? I was astonished and happy at the same time.

We boarded the bus. Grace was still feeling frustrated, and decided to get a cab after alighting from the bus. We tried to flag a cab near the streets at first, but to no avail. Then we headed off to the taxi-stand.

There were quite a number of people before us, so we had to wait for some time. Grace was already late at that time, and I also knew that I was going to be late. A couple of cabs came until there was only one family before us in the queue.

At that time, I decided to say another prayer. While I was praying, the same verse rang in my head once more. "If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer." The same question popped in my head, "Do you believe?" I said "yes!" This time, I also prayed that 2 cabs will come at the same time so that we will not have to wait for such a long time.

When I opened my eyes, there were not a single cab still. So I kept praying and praying.

After waiting for a couple of minutes, walah! 2 cabs came at the same time! I was so amazed! God answered my prayed the second time!!!

Even though the both of us were late, but I still want to thank God for His provision. A simple thing like providing us with transport and bringing them to us on time, is something already so great and powerful to me. What more can I say if He was to do something even greater in my life?

Well, I know He will definitely do greater things in my life. But these little things in life are the things that really make me realize how much I need God in my life and how much I should really thank Him for everything that He has done in my life.

God is great, and one thing that I know is that He will hear our prayers.

Sometimes we may wonder why doesn't God answer our prayers. The answer is not because God doesn't want to answer our prayers, it's just that God knows that it is not the right time for things to happen. Therefore, I will be patient and wait for the right time for things to happen. :)

FAITH

*God, my Provider*

Next Phase in Life: University!

2011-07-10T23:20:00.003+08:00

Hoho! School is supposed to start tomorrow, but according to the timetable, I'm starting school on Thursday instead! That means another 3 more days of holidays! That is the good news~

The bad news is that school is starting soon, which means my rest period is ending soon.

Well, there is always a time for everything. There is a time to work, there is a time to rest. This is life!

I would say that I'm half excited and half reluctant. Excited because of the fact that the long-awaited moment is finally here! UNIVERSITY!

I still remembered the time when I was young, I used to wonder how university is like and felt how far and long before that time would come. So now, it's finally here! It's just another inch of a step away. That's how close it is! And this might be my final part of my education life.

I'm reluctant to go to university is because this will mean that it is time to buck up and start studying, and no more slacking! In addition, I will have to adapt to the new environment. Thank God that I have Grace to accompany me for this semester.

Things will definitely be kinda different once I step into university. It'll be a new learning environment. There will be new friends to make. There will be new things to learn. It will be a whole new experience!

3 more days of holidays before the actual thing starts! I shall use my remaining 3 days well, and start to prepare for the fresh start.

University, here I come!!!

FAITH

*Stepping into the next phase in life*

GIGGLES Very First Outing Today!

2011-06-22T23:08:00.003+08:00

I just had my very first GIGGLES DG outing with the kids and their friends at Woodlands Waterfront today.

I'm feeling rather shagged now...

Firstly, I had Games Day with the BB on Sunday, and I ended up feeling very tired. Secondly, I had to wake up early in the morning for badminton session on Monday. Yesterday (Tues), I stayed at the airport till 1plus in the morning to pick Kang up.

Today, I woke up early for the outing.

Shag ah shag... Moreover, I have to wake up early for the youth retreat tomorrow. I've been pretty busy these few days, and feeling tired, but I would truly say that each day has passed happily and I have been having lots of fun.

No doubt there are still hindering thoughts in my mind that still taunts me each day, but these activities do help me to put my focus away from those mind-boggling thoughts.

Youth retreat starts tomorrow! Kinda excited on what's to come~ I pray that everything will run smoothly, and I pray for safety throughout the trip.

Time to get some rest to restore my energy! Tata~

FAITH

*Busy... Tired... Shagged...

But I still had fun!*

Coping Through Prayer

2011-06-19T21:44:00.003+08:00

It was such a long day today, and I'm feeling so tired now... Zzzzzzzz

After church service, we had the Games Day with the BB boys at Yishun Town Secondary School. I would say that the time of games was fun~

After the Games Day, I went to visit my oldest brother, Hobart, who was admitted to the hospital due to dengue fever. Thank God that he is recovering fast. Honestly speaking, I feel bad for not making the time to go and visit him at the hospital. So CK decided to make a trip down today, and I followed.

So many things had happened recently... There were things that had made me happy, there were things that had made me upset. However, there is one thing that have constantly make me frustrated and disappointed.

haiz... Tell me how to deal with the thought of missing someone so badly... Tell me how to deal with the thought of wanting to talk to someone so badly...

The only way that I've tried to cope with these feelings and thoughts are by praying to God about them. What else can I do but to pass each day this way? I'm hoping for a miracle~

Sometimes, I may seem to put a smile on my face, but honestly, there is still this stirring feeling within me that may cause me to feel emotional at times.

Prayer is the only way that can help me to cope with this feeling inside.

FAITH

*Good Things Come When You Least Expect Them*

Facebook Makes Me Frustrated

2011-06-16T23:51:00.003+08:00

Argh!!! I'm sooo irritated & annoyed!

My Facebook cannot work on my laptop! AHHH!!!

I tried Google Chrome, the webpage is "distorted".

I tried Internet Explorer, a pop-out box says "Internet Explorer cannot open the Internet site http://facebook.com/. Operation aborted".

I tried Mozilla Firefox, it simply cannot even work!

ARGH!!!!

It's so ironic! I was lamenting this morning that Facebook has caused me to be so troubled and frustrated.

How 'great'! Now, Facebook really cannot work... :( What I'd said has come true...

The funny thing is that all the other websites can work except for Facebook. Thank God that my Facebook still can work on other computers but not on my laptop.

Gosh! I need to settle some stuff via Facebook...

Perhaps this is a way of telling me that I've been Facebooking too much. At the same time, perhaps it's a way to get me away from all those frustrations that I'm having...

haiz... Praying that it can work when I try it again tomorrow.

FAITH

*Facebook, please work!*

Thinking Too Much

2011-06-14T23:09:00.004+08:00

心酸

心乱

心痛

心烦

头脑一直胡思乱想

最后伤了自己。

我好讨厌那种感觉。。。多么希望我想象的都是假的。

I feel dumb for thinking too much. I wanna scream out all my frustrations that are taunting my mind. They're driving me crazy. Gosh!

FAITH

*AHHHHH!!!*

It's Unpredictable...

2011-06-14T21:29:00.002+08:00

So many things happened today. There're good news and bad news...

Firstly, I finally passed my Basic Theory Test! I was so scared before and during the test that I kept praying about it. When I completed the test, I kept checking the test over and over again. I didn't even dare to submit the test, afraid that I will see a big red 'FAIL' on the screen. That idea scares me a lot!

Nevertheless, I had to submit my test. I did. And... Walah! Instead of seeing a 'FAIL', I saw a 'PASSED'! I was so excited! Yipee! XD

That's the good news.

The bad news? My darling hamster, Frisby, passed away today... The depressing thing was that I witnessed Frisby lying weakly in the morning before I headed off for my BTT. How 'great' is it right? Having to witness my dying hamster before I take my test...

I had no choice but to leave my house and Frisby for my test. I actually expected to come back home seeing a lifeless hamster after my test.

Surprisingly, when I reached home, Frisby was still breathing but weak. I spent his remaining time together with him. He passed on around 5 plus in the afternoon. He's my last hamster... I'm pet-less now. :(

I find it ironic. I find it ironic that the first time when I took my BTT, on my brother's birthday, I was in a happy mood. But I ended up failing my test and cried the whole day.

Today, I started off the day feeling depressed because of Frisby, and the ironic part is that I passed my BTT.

Well, I know that I cannot compare the 2 situations in this manner. Needless to say, I had put in more effort to prepare for my 2nd attempt. My dad also put in a lot of effort to help me with this test.

I passed my BTT, and I had made him proud~ :)

haiz... Now, after passing my BTT and witnessing Frisby's death, my heart is still going up and down. I'm still scared of something else... still scared of something else... It's blowing my mind, thinking about it everyday. haiz... but I cannot do anything but to wait and see...

FAITH

*BTT Hooray! :D / Frisby misses~ :(*

When Boy Meets Girl, and Girl Meets Boy

2011-06-08T18:53:00.003+08:00

I've just completed another book! haha! I'm so proud of myself cos I must admit that I'm not a bookworm.

The reason why I read certain books is because of the content. I like to read books that relates to me well, and that I find the content interesting and fruitful to understand.

Anyway, I've just finished reading Joshua Harris' second book called "Boy Meets Girl". It is equally as good as "I Kissed Dating Goodbye", just that "I Kissed Dating Goodbye" focuses on people who are single and "Boy Meets Girl" focuses on courtship.

All in all, both books talk about something important in life --> Relationship & Marriage

This time, I did not take down any notes for this book cos in the current time, this book is not as applicable to me as compared to "I Kissed Dating Goodbye". Still, I will recommend this book to others.

After reading the 2 books, I really feel encouraged by them. I really felt God speaking to me through the 2 books. I have really learned a lot about what it means to get into a relationship, and learning to serve God and love your partner at the same time.

I would like to share this part of the book which had encouraged me:

"If you're single, I believe that God wants you to see that you story has begun. Life doesn't start when you find a spouse. Marriage is wonderful, but it's simply a new chapter in life. It's just a new way to do what we're all created to do - to live and glorify our Creator.

Right now God is working all the elements of your life together for your good (Romans 8:28). This time in your life is part of your story. Maybe it's not what you had planned. Maybe you wish your Prince or Princess would have arrived by now. But God is right on schedule. He knows exactly what He's doing. He sees you right where you are. He hasn't forgotten you. He hasn't overlooked you. The circumstances you're going through - no matter how difficult - are part of the very happy ending He has planned...

Trust God's sovereignty. He sees your end from your beginning. His plan for your life can't be thwarted. He is in control.

Trust God's wisdom. If marriage is His will for you, He knows exactly what you need in a spouse. And in His unfathomable wisdom, He knows when you'll be ready. His timing will be perfect.

Trust God's love. Hasn't He given His very life to save you from sin? Hasn't He demonstrated His love on the cross? Then He can provide for your lesser needs too. Even your present trials are part of His loving plan for you. And whatever God has in store for tomorrow will be another perfect expression of His love."

Faith & Patience is what I need. I need to believe in God's awesome wisdom that He has planned out something perfect for me. His plan will never fail.

What is meant to be will meant to be~ :)

FAITH

*God knows when is the BEST time for things to happen~*

Never to Give Up

2011-06-06T23:50:00.003+08:00

Today, before I went to bathe, I was sitting down by the air-con when I observed a stream of ants crawling into various holes (which I supposed is where their nest is).

As I began to observe, I spotted this soldier ant that looked weak and shaky as it crawls. The next moment, I saw it dropped all the way to the floor with a small *thud*. After seeing that, I used a tissue, picked it up, and placed it back to it was previously. However, the soldier ant was still crawling unsteadily.

As I continue to observe the worker ants busily crawling from one hole to another, they just "sped" passed the weak soldier ant. However to my surprise, one worker ant actually stopped and started to "push" the weak soldier ant by its butt. In the actual fact, it actually helped the soldier ant to increase its speed.

When the 2 ants began to struggle up the vertical wall, the soldier ant all of the sudden lost its grip and fell. I was astounded to what happened next... When the soldier ant fell, the worker ant caught hold of its leg and supported the weight of the soldier ant (which was about 3 times its size!!!)

As the soldier ant dangled in the air with one leg being held on by the worker ant, I saw how helpless the soldier ant was. Do you know what happened next? After some time, the worker ant realized that the soldier ant could not hold on any longer, so the worker ant "threw" the soldier ant on its back and carried it up to the hole all by itself!

Whoa! I'm so amazed at how the ants work!

More importantly, I have learned something after observing the ants at work, and that is never to give up no matter how heavy the burden is. Just like the worker ant, it knew that it has a heavy burden (the soldier ant) to carry, and it had so much difficulty trying to "push" it to the hole. And even in desperate state, when the solider ant fell, the worker ant held on its grip not letting the soldier ant fall to the ground. Therefore, even in desperate states, we should not give up but to continue believing in the Almighty God for His awesome strength and power to carry us through the path. Once we've gained the strength, we will be able to carry on and overcome the trial.

I'm simply amazed at how wonderful God has worked in the lives of the people around me, and including my own life. Even though there are times that I have faced troubles and disappointments, by believing in His great love and mercy, I was able to pull through the tough times. One thing I know is that humans will disappoint us, but God will never ever disappoint us. :)

FAITH

*Instead of giving up, we should learn to overcome trials in life

by believing that God can help to lift our burdens

through constant prayer and faith.*

I Kissed Dating Goodbye

2011-06-02T21:33:00.002+08:00

I've just finished reading 'I Kissed Dating Goodbye' by Joshua Harris!

It's a sense of accomplishment for me because honestly, I feel that this is one long book to read.

Anyway, I have learn a lot of things from this bestseller book~ On top of that, in fact, I felt that God was speaking to me through this book. This book really relates to me well.

One of my favourite quotes in this book is "The right thing at the wrong time is the wrong thing".

Sometimes in life, we tend to rush into things that we want to attain, especially in relationships. In that case, we often ignore God's perfect timing for us. The ironic thing is that no matter how right we feel the time is, it will never be the absolute right time if God thinks the opposite way. And by ignoring that fact, we will actually end up with the wrong thing...

From this book, I have also come to realize the importance and the gift of singleness. Well, sometimes people tend to look at singleness as a "curse" and they rush into relationships. In the end, they always end up feeling depressed and upset about their relationships.

Singleness is a gift from God~ And I am appreciating my singleness as I can till the day that God decides to change it. ;D

This book is a really good book, and I've enjoyed it~ I would recommend you folks to read it too!

FAITH

*The Right Thing at the Wrong Time is the Wrong Thing

I shall just put my faith in God and trust in His timing~*

Confidence

2011-05-14T21:15:00.002+08:00

I was just intending to watch videos from Bubzbeauty when I came across her newest video on 'being confident'.

I kinda like how the way she addresses on the topic about 'confidence'.

Well, I do agree that many times, people tend to lack the confidence in themselves because they tend to compare themselves to the people around them.

One thing that I like about what Bubbi addressed is that confidence is about just being yourself.

Confidence is about the acceptance of who you are. Confidence is about accepting the person whom God has created.

Everyone is imperfect, but that does not mean that we can never be happy or contented with who we are. If we learn to accept ourselves, that's when we know and appreciate the wonders of God's creation, and that is you!

For me, I find the confidence when I rely on God. That's when I find true happiness~ :)

FAITH

*Confidence is about Acceptance*

明知我爱你

2011-05-11T23:51:00.002+08:00

Karen just sent me this song~

It's such a nice song, and most importantly, the lyrics really relates to me.

Whatever it is, the key is to have a child-like faith~

FAITH

*A simple yet complicated word: "Faith"*

I've Officially Graduated from RP!

2011-05-09T23:25:00.007+08:00

Today, 9th May 2011, marks the day that I have graduated from Republic Polytechnic after having studied for 3 years for the Diploma in Hotel & Hospitality Management.

I have finally attained my diploma certificate after these 3 years of study! yay! :D

Mummy & papa came to witness my graduation ceremony! Thanks papa & mummy! Love you~

The ceremony was rather long though. Lots of talking and lots of names to be called out so that the recipients can proceed on on stage to collect their diploma certificates.

Anyway, Dr Vivian Balakrishnan was the Guest of Honour for my session.

And a photo of me receiving my cert on stage~ (It's not clear though, but I have ordered photos from the sales booth and will be receiving the photos sometime later.)

Mummy & I :)

Papa & I :)

And there was a lunch reception, so all the graduands and guests were allowed to eat from the sumptuous food provided~

After that, my mum began to snap tons of photos of me in my graduation attire.

And... The school also provided free photo-taking~

Walah! With a blink of an eye, 3 years are gone just like that! I'm still very amazed at how fast time flies.

Now, having officially graduated from polytechnic, it's time for me to step into the next stage of life: University.

I'm currently still waiting for my university application results. Pray pray pray for good results~

FAITH

*Farewell RP~*

Talking about Politics

2011-05-09T19:11:00.003+08:00

As Singaporeans know that the days of the Election 2011 is over, and everyone knows the final results of the election.

Well, there are some people cheering about it, while some are jeering...

Anyway to start off... It's another ironic thing! Fiducia Lee is talking about politics when she has clearly no interest in this topic!

In fact, I really do not have any interest in politics, but what triggered my interest about this election was on the day when the results were announced.

My dad pulled out a scorecard that was printed in the newspaper that day, and wanted me to help him to take down the scores when the results were announced that night.

So, I readily agreed to help him to do so.

At night, when the results were being read out, I took down the total count of votes for each contesting party on the scorecard.
It was pretty exciting to watch as the results were announced. It felt as though I was awaiting for my examination results. The anticipation was stirring within me.

Well, even though I'm not much into politics and that I was not eligible to vote for the elections this year, I still support PAP. However, I will not talk much about the reasons why I support PAP because I feel that everyone has their own reason for supporting the different parties. I just hope that Singaporeans vote because of the sake of their future instead of being rebellious or because they like or dislike a particular candidate of the party.

With regards to the results, I would say that I am both pleased and displeased at the same time. Well, I believe that Singaporeans were also pleased and displeased with the results too. Anyway, we can never be satisfied.

Firstly, I'm pretty upset that Minister George Yeo and his team was voted out of Aljunied GRC. At the beginning, I was quite indifferent about the overall results and did bother much about who won and who lost.

However as I began to read up more about Mr George Yeo, I realized that he is a very good minister who really cares for the people. Oh well... Things happen for a reason. I do not know exactly why do the Worker's Party gain so much support, but we shall see how they can help the people of Aljunied then.

Another person that I would say that I admire is Mr Chiam See Tong. Perhaps that it was due to his poor health that had caused people to feel that he should retire soon. I'm not too certain about that.
My GRC is Bishan-Toa Payoh, and SPP was the opposition party that contested. Mr Chiam led his team for this GRC.

I do not have much to say about the winning of the PAP and the losing of SPP in my GRC, but I would want to say that I admire the effort that Mr Chiam have been putting in for the past few years.

This was a picture that I saw online, and I find it pretty interesting though.
Some people voted for the opposition because they feel that the opposition should win some seats in the parliament, so that there will be another voice. I feel that that is a good reason.

However, I hope that people did not vote purely out of rebellion or randomness.

To me, PAP has been doing a good job for the past few years. No doubt that they had made many mistakes, but you have to know something, and that is that everyone makes mistakes. One thing for sure that I know is that no matter what the government is doing, they are doing for the good of the country. I respect the PAP for their hard work and effort~

We shall see how will things go in the next five years then. I wonder how will the next election be? The next time, I will be voting~ :D

FAITH

*Loyalty to God first, before loyalty to the country*

A New Haircut / BTT Dismay

2011-05-04T11:02:00.002+08:00

Hello! After my BTT yesterday, I headed off to Marsling with Grace to cut our hair.

Walah! I cut my hair and fringe short! hoho!

Nah! I am just kidding!

I didn't cut my hair short. However, I did cut my fringe short cos I cannot trick by making my fringe short, but I can trick by making an illusion that my hair is shorter.

As my hair is very layered after yesterday's haircut, all I did was to tie my bottom layer of hair (the longer strands) up into a bun and hide it under my upper layer of hair.

Walah!!!

Alright, Grace & I had some time snapping photos of our new hair.

LOL!

Anyway, talking about my BTT. I failed...

Yes! I was super miserable that I kept crying yesterday.

Ironic huh? Fiducia Lee crying over a failure of a test?

I never cry over a failure of a test this bad before. Moreover, this is one small little test as compared to the other tests that I took in the past.

Let's see...

I failed my Principle of Accounts during my O levels, but I didn't cry.

I failed my Piano Practical Test Grade 4, but I didn't cry.

I failed a couple of other examinations in school in the past, but I also didn't cry.

Crying over the failure of my BTT?

Well, I would say the most likely reason for my utter disappointment was due to over-confidence. I was too confident in this test, thinking that I could pass this test easily. Therefore when I knew the results, I couldn't take it.

Oh well... I'm still very disappointed about it. My mum even counselled me about this situation, bcos apparently I felt stupid for failing this easy test.

Now, I have to wait till 14th June for my next BTT. I have to pass this test!

Well, it's a lesson for me to learn anyway. Never to underestimate the simplicity of the test, because humans make mistakes easily too.

FAITH

*When you fall down, pick yourself up and walk again.*

A Fruitful Vacation

2011-05-03T11:24:00.002+08:00

Hey folks! I'm back to Singapore after a one week vacation trip to Australia from 21st - 29th April.

I would say that this trip was really awesome! The sight-seeing and the food! *drool*

Grace snapped tons & tons of photos using her new DSLR that her dad bought for her. We visited Melbourne & Sydney. Basically, Kang was our tour guide for this entire trip. :D

We went to places like the Great Ocean Road, Sydney's Aquarium and also Wildlife World, as well as Ocean Manly. We also visited Melbourne's Werribee Open Range Zoo on the last day.

Above all, I would say that the best experience was still the trip to Bridge Church. That was particularly the moment when God spoke to me.

We visited Bridge Church for both Good Friday and Easter Sunday. The message brought to us was so inspiring! I was specially touched by the message sent to us during the sermon on Easter Sunday.

Before I went for this trip, I actually prayed to God to speak to me during this trip. He did!

During the service, I witnessed the baptism. Honestly speaking, it was the first time that I felt so moved by the baptism. The people who were going to be baptized treated baptism so seriously and important. I even teared when I witnessed the baptism.

In addition, the sermon also touched me. I remembered the Pastor talking about us getting a new heart, and that we should live our lives through our hearts. I then realized that I had been living my life mainly through my mind, and at that moment, I prayed for a new heart.

The entire trip was very fruitful, I must say. On the last night, Kang, Grace & I sat by the pier, looking at the calm waters and spending some individual time with God. I felt so serene and peaceful. I began thanking God for everything.

Oh ya! On the last night of our trip, we also had a very sumptuous meal! We had Japanese cuisine that cost $98 per person! *kaching* Expensive but delicious!

I remembered vividly that each time we took a bite of the food, our faces would literally lit up and our smiles would be as wide as it could get! It was that yummy! *drool*

Food food food... I would say that a lot of our money was spent on food. On our last day in Sydney, we had a full rack of lamb ribs and pork ribs for lunch! Yum!

The fish & chips that we had at Great Ocean Road was also very goooooood! The fish was so fresh!

Talking about food, we also snacked almost every night while watching a movie each night. Australia's potato chips are superb!

Anyway, a time of fun and enjoyment was soon over and we found ourselves back home in Singapore not long after. However, the feeling of fruitfulness was still within Grace & my hearts. After our Australia trip, we were so inspired to make a change to our church ministry. Well, I do pray hard that God will lead us through this. I believe that it is possible to make that change! ;D

I would also like to thank Kang, my wonderful God-brother, for forking out his time and effort to make this trip possible. Thank you Kang for also being such a caring brother~ :)

Lastly, I would like to wish my brother, Darius, a HAPPY BIRTHDAY! God bless you! :D

Faith

*All things, whatsoever ye shall ask in prayer, believing, ye shall receive.*

(Matthew 21:22)

Heaven Is For Real!

2011-05-03T10:34:00.003+08:00

Instead of blogging about my Auzzie trip that has just happened a week ago first, I have decided to blog about this wonderful book that I have read. It is called "Heaven is for real".

This book is so inspiring and touching! It also makes you so curious to know more each time, that you will not stop reading. That's why I managed to finish reading this book within 2 days. Majority of it was completed last night.

This book talks about a little boy's near death experience that brought him to claim that he has been to heaven. He even claimed that he saw Jesus himself. There are many other interesting descriptions that this little boy made that makes you so in awe by the wonders of how heaven looks like.

For example, everyone in heaven are not old and do not wear glasses. Everyone in heaven has wings except for Jesus. Jesus even has a rainbow horse!

Well, interesting huh?

Not only is it interesting to read, it is also touching. When I was reading this book, I wept a couple of times. I just felt so guilty inside me, and at the same time, I was so in awe by the wonders of heaven.

As I was reading the book, I was both in tears and at the same time, smiling.

The book also showed a portrait of Jesus painted by this girl called, Akiane Kramarik, who also claimed to have been to heaven.

I began to stare at that portrait of Jesus and tears welled up in my eyes. In my head, it was saying, "So this is how Jesus looks like. His eyes are really beautiful~"

After reading the book, I prayed to God and told Him how wonderful He is.

This morning, when I woke up, I felt so refreshed like never before! I looked into the mirror and saw sparkles in my eyes. My hair seemed to glow, and the morning sun was so bright!

It was such a good feeling inside my heart!

Therefore folks, I would recommend you to read this book. I tell you, this book will surely inspire you~ ;D

FAITH

*Indeed, Heaven is for real~*

Australia, Here I Come!

2011-04-21T15:30:00.002+08:00

hoho! The time to fly to Australia is finally here!

Gonna fly to Australia tonight and shall enjoy a week of vacation there~

Most importantly, I pray that this trip will be a fruitful one.

One week of break and a time of self-reflection~

Bye folks! Bye Singapore! :D

Australia, here I come!

FAITH

*Pray for a safe & enjoyable & fruitful trip~*

The Idea of Getting Attached

2011-04-20T16:37:00.003+08:00

Boy-Girl relationship? Getting steady? Being attached?

Oh well, this is one 'Big' question that many teenagers question each other nowadays.

I was having my facial yesterday when my therapist asked me whether I am turning 20 this year. I nodded my head and said "yes". Technically, 19 years old turning 20.

She then proceeded on to the next question. "Then do you have a boyfriend?" (in mandarin)

I shook my head and said "no".

She was surprised and asked "you mean you never had a boyfriend?"

"nope... never ever had a boyfriend..." I smiled back at her.

Honestly, she was not the first person who had given me this kind of reaction. Whenever I say that I have never gone into a relationship before, people jaws will literally dropped as though I had just told them a cold joke. They just cannot decipher the fact that I never have a boyfriend before.

Continuing my conversation with my therapist...

She said that her daughter told her that if teenagers in Secondary school do not get attached, it is pretty 'paiseh' (meaning embarrassing).

I immediately laughed and said that there is no rush to a relationship as there is still time to find a partner.

hmmm... not getting attached during Secondary school is paiseh? Is that the trend with teenagers nowadays?

Reflecting back to my Secondary school days, I did have the same perspective as my therapist's daughter. Seeing my friends getting attached, seeing couples in school, will urge you to find a boyfriend too.

Yes... I did had the mindset of "I Want To Get A Boyfriend!!!!" during that time.

My parents will always lecture me in the past saying "Cannot have boyfriend ah! Wait till you get into university, then you get one!"

Right... haha! At that time, I felt that my university education was still soooo far!

However, the more my parents lecture me about this issue, the more tempted I was to get attached.

I was so young then...

Now almost reaching the 2nd decade of my life, my university education is just another footstep away. This shows how fast time flies huh...

In the current time, my parents are no longer lecturing me not to get into a relationship.

My mum especially, has been asking me this question, "有没有人追你?" (Is there anyone wooing you?)

My answer will always be a straight "no", and my mum will have a sense of disbelief and sometimes, she will ask my brother or cousin to clarify.

LOL! I am speaking the truth! There really is no guy wooing me!

And if people are to ask me whether do I intend to get a boyfriend, I will reply "hmmm... I don't think now is the right time to get one."

Ironic huh? In the past, I was constantly thinking of getting attached. Envying others who have boyfriends. I still remember vividly that I was out with my group of girl friends shopping on Valentine's Day during my Secondary school days. There were couples everywhere, and I remembered that I was feeling so envious! haha~

However through out my teenage life, I have learned the idea of getting attached.

To get a boyfriend is not just something that every teenage girl must do.

**To get a boyfriend is basically finding a suitable lifetime partner**

Therefore, getting a boyfriend requires a lot of time and patience.

I admit that I am having feelings for someone right now, but that does not mean that I have to get into a relationship with him.

I know that it is ironic. I mean, who does not want to get into a relationship with the person they love?

Honestly, deep down deep down inside my heart, I am yearning for one too. However, somehow I feel that God is telling me that now is just not the right time.

And it is pretty ironic that university is just another step away, and it is the long awaited time since I was young to have the chance to finally get into a relationship, but somehow, I do not intend to step into a relationship.

Well, I do not know whether will my mindset change or not. I will let God lead me through this time.

Get attached? nah... I shall focus on my university studies first.

The guy I like? No worries... He will still remain in my heart. It is just that I will like to prioritize my studies first.

Let Jesus take the wheel of your life. You will see the wonders of His works in your life~

FAITH

*Jesus take the wheel*

Maybe I am frustrated...

2011-04-16T23:50:00.002+08:00

I seriously didn't know what overcame me.

I was just sitting by my laptop, looking at my facebook page, then I was listening to this song 'Like a fire' by planetshakers.

Then I began to clutch my hands on my head as though I am very frustrated over something, and halfway through the song, tears just rolled down non-stop.

Alvin asked me just now whether was I frustrated. Maybe I am frustrated...

Even I, myself, is confused over my own emotions. I don't even know what I am truly feeling. Frustrated? Confused?

But the tears definitely meant something. I really need God in my life... Only God knows what I am truly feeling.

FAITH

Psalm 55:22

"Cast your cares on the Lord and He will sustain you;

He will never let the righteous be shaken."

L-O-V-E

2011-04-15T15:18:00.004+08:00

This blog post may seem a bit "emo" but I'm just picking out some quotes about 'LOVE' that I took from Tumblr.

I felt that some of these quotes make sense about love. However, all in all, the greatest thing that we can ever ask for is God's love.

1 Corinthians 13: 4 - 8a

4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.8Love never fails.

I realized that in life, the greatest thing is LOVE. Without it, life will not be as wonderful as it is now~

Sometimes we get heartbreaks and hurt by the people we love, but one thing we must know is the love never fails.

A few days ago, my god sis told me that "love fades". Honestly, I disagree.

I did a cross-reference for the same verse but using that English Standard Version, and verse 8a wrote:

"8Love never ends."

Indeed, love never ends. Moreover, it never fades. If you truly love someone, the love will not ever fade. If it fades, it means that you had never truly love that person.

Love is also not blind. As I had mentioned in one of my earlier post, I said that love is eye-opening. It is because we love someone, we accept a bit of that person including his flaws. We even tend to see the flaws as his strengths.

If you had ever love someone, you will not hate him despite how much he had hurt you. Instead, you will continuously forgive him for the mistakes that he had done to you.

Matthew 18: 21-22

21Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, “Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother when he sins against me? Up to seven times?”

22Jesus answered, “I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times.

Seventy-seven times is not literally 77 times, but what Jesus meant was to forgive him all the time and never stop forgiving him.

Love is what makes life gets going~

FAITH

*Love Overcomes Virtually Everything*

Pretty Spring Half-Do Tryout!

2011-04-14T23:08:00.004+08:00

Hey hey! Once again, because I was feeling bored, I went to check out beauty tutorials on youtube.

Bubzbeauty! I love her and her videos!

Below is her new video. Yup! I'm experimenting again and it's so fun~

So I tried this hairstyle out, and it is pretty easy to do! I even curled my hair~ :D

I began to take a couple of photos of my up-do. Apologies for the rather poor quality camera shots. (taken by my webcam)

Added a large flower accessory on my head~

And... After taking so many photos, I released my hair.

Walah! A big mess!

ok! Enough of cam-whoring... But it's just so fun experimenting beauty tutorials!

:DDD

FAITH

*It's always fun to experiment new things!*

Water Marble Nail Art

2011-04-14T14:05:00.005+08:00

I realized that I am a person that likes to experiment things. haha! But I am not cut out to be a scientist. :P

Anyway, I watched a nail art tutorial called the 'Water Marble Nail Art'. It is sooo cool and interesting! Hence, I decided to try out this new technique of nail 'painting'. In the actual fact, you don't even need to paint your nails and yet you can get nail polish on your nails! Awesome or what?

This is one of the videos on Youtube:

Cool right?

Thus I tried to use this technique to 'paint' my nails yesterday. However, I tried and tried a couple of times but to no avail.

I tried different types of water, but it still didn't work. So I realized that my nail polish were of rather poor quality that made it difficult for the polish to spread on the water surface.

Went out with Alexis to talk about DG yesterday. Thank you Alexis for the time yesterday! :)

Anyway, I went for a little shopping together with her around Bugis Junction after our dinner at Waraku Pasta. The pasta was superb!

I bought Sally Hansen's nail polish! 2 bottles! $12.90 per bottle! Wah... Expensive but worth the investment. LOL

Alexis was sooo cute! She went to buy a pan and a cooking utensil at Mujee and she was so excited. She's playing her role as a wife~ haha! She wanted to make pancakes for herself and Ching Kit. Sweet~ :D

Ok! After coming back home, I decided to try my new Sally Hansen's nail polish for the water marble nail art technique again.

I love this nail polish cos they dry instantly! It's so suitable for an impatient person like me. :P

So I tried out the new technique...

The nail polish colours spread on the water surface! So exciting and cool to watch!

Then I used a toothpick to draw patterns on the water surface.

Dip goes my finger into the water!

Walah! yea... I know that it's a little messy with my fingers painted too... It's my first time trying this out anyway~

This was how my fingers looked after dipping them into the water. Awesome!

And this is how my fingers look like after all the nail polish have been removed from my skin. Pretty! :DDD

So exciting and cool! haha! Shall try more next time~

Below is just a snap shot of my graduation attire. I bought it from school on Monday.

Gold is the colour for the School of Hospitality.

Well, this attire is a reminder that I'm going to graduate from RP. :D

It is also a reminder that time flies very fast. 3 years of polytechnic education is gone just like that...

I guess my university studies will be gone just like that too~ I also believe that my wait for that 3 - 4 years will be over just like that... "A blink of an eye" was what I said...

FAITH

*Life can be pretty fun & interesting when we try new things~*

*A blink of an eye is all that it takes for time to fly~*

*I believe that I can go through this 3 - 4 years with patience~*

Dance I Never Knew

2011-04-13T00:09:00.002+08:00

Attended Ryan Daniel Beck's contemporary jazz workshop at O School today!

Initially, I was contemplating on whether should I stay at home or to go for dance because Grace informed me at the last minute that she was unable to make it for the dance lesson.

After much thought, plus weighing the various factors on whether to go or not to go, I finally decided to go cos I felt that I was really beginning to 'rot' at home. Moreover, I felt like going out to breathe some fresh air.

Wow! Ryan's class was awesome~ If I can use one word to describe the lesson, I will use the word 'peaceful'.

Yes! The lesson was very peaceful~

When I first entered the studio, the studio was dark and there were lighted candles on the floor. Moreover, there was an aroma in the room. It was something very new to me. Whenever I go for dance, the room will usually be crowded with quite a number of people and the room will be rather bright. Today's lesson was totally different. It was a whole new experience~

The workshop was organized as a charity event for the Japan Tsunami. During the lesson, Ryan did lots of warm-ups. There was one instance whereby he told us to lie down on the floor and close our eyes. Wah! I literally felt like sleeping sia! haha! The atmosphere was just so serene and peaceful. In addition, he rubbed some aromatic oil on the temples of our heads.

He also taught us a simple choreography and taught us about the 4 qualities of dance. The 4 qualities are 'sustain', 'percussion', 'pendulum', and 'vibratory'. After teaching us the choreo, he told us to express the choreo in any of the 4 qualities according to our own wishes. Before the start of each dance, he will always ask us to picture a scene of the Japan tsunami in our heads, close our eyes, get our stability, before we choose to start dancing our piece.

When I danced, I felt very free and peaceful. The feeling was very good. Even though many of the times I forgot my dance steps, I did not panic, but was able to freely continue dancing through.

He also mentioned that everyone has a different body. Therefore, we express our dance styles in different ways as we all have different bodies.

The overall experience was fantastic! I guess I do not regret on my decision of choosing to go for the workshop today.

Moreover, the dance lesson did make me feel better. I do not feel as troubled as I was yesterday already. I felt as though the dance lesson was like a therapy.

Below is a video of one of Ryan's choreography:

Awww! Today's Ben and Jerry's Free Cone Day! I didn't get to have my free cone! haha! It's ok cos Grace is going to get home tubs of ice cream! Awesomeness~

FAITH

*I didn't know that dance can be so peaceful until today~*

The Real Me / A Troubled Heart

2011-04-11T22:04:00.004+08:00

有时候我觉得自己很聪明, 有时候我觉得自己很傻。

有时候我觉得自己很勇敢, 有时候我觉得自己很害羞。

有时候我的脸上会带着笑容, 有时候我的眼睛会流眼泪。

到了最后, 我会问自己哪一个是真正的我。

我发觉到原来这才是真正的我。

I posted this on my facebook earlier on this afternoon.

English Translation:

Sometimes I feel that I am very smart, sometimes I feel that I am very foolish.

Sometimes I feel that I am very bold, sometimes I feel that I am very shy.

Sometimes you will see smiles on my face, sometimes you will see tears in my eyes.

At the end of the day, I will ask myself "Who is the real me?"

I realized that this is the REAL ME.

Sometimes, I really struggle to find out my real identity. I often find myself acting in opposite ways.

This is me. Fiducia Lee Zhen Hui. A girl who often appears happy and cheerful, but a heart that is easily broken.

I am like a piece of glass. Hard and solid in appearance, but a blow will leave me shattering into pieces.

One thing about me is that I recover pretty fast, but I fall pretty easily too. Minor things can affect me, and sometimes I feel that I am very weak.

Therefore, I find strength in God. He is my pillar of strength. He is the shoulder for me to lean on.

I seriously hate it sometimes that I cry too easily. I seriously hate it sometimes that I get troubled easily.

But one thing that keeps me going is my faith in God. I seriously don't want to give up, I don't want to give up. Sometimes, people tell me to give up. I hate it a lot... Why should I give up when God is asking me not to?

I feel utterly silly. Utterly utterly silly for certain actions that I have done. But do I regret them? Surprisingly, no. I don't wanna live a life of regrets, and I believe that things are done for a good reason.

Silly? yes, the actions are silly and I think that I'm silly. Somehow, I feel that what I'm doing isn't wrong, but just think that the actions maybe a little careless.

I'm worried for the both of you. My friends... I am worried. But all I can do is just to pray for you both.

I'm also very worried about my DG, GIGGLES. Oh dear God, please guide me as the leader of GIGGLES. I am so worried, so so worried... What's happening??? Heavenly Father, please bless my DG...

I'm lost, I'm confused, I'm troubled... Oh God, I need your help!

FAITH

*Oh Lord Jesus, I need your help~*

4th Contemporary Jazz Lesson!

2011-04-06T22:08:00.003+08:00

Another video is up up up!!! AWESOME! :DDD

This was my 4th contemp jazz lesson. The 3rd one was the one on 'Lucky' by Jason Mraz and Colbie Caillat, but the video was unable to work.

Oh well, I love this video the best anyway cos it's the one that I danced the best (even though I was off beat a little at the back)!

More videos to come! This means more lessons to attend~

FAITH

*Dance Dance Dance~*

Fiducia is Clumsy

2011-04-04T12:03:00.004+08:00

I realized that I can be pretty clumsy at times...

That's not good... But that clearly brings out the sanguine personality of me.

Sharing a couple of clumsy moments that I had just experienced recently.

The first instance happened when I was entering the church compounds on one Sunday morning through the back gate. I was wearing heels that day. I was walking down the stairs when my heels tripped over one of the steps and I literally slipped and fell. To prevent myself from falling any further, I used my knee to support myself. I ended up banging my knee on the hard solid ground of the stair step. Ouch! The most embarrassing thing was that I fell in front the sight of many aunties. Grace was standing behind me, and she was shocked when I fell. LOL!

I had bruises on my knee after that... =x

Another clumsy experience that I encountered a couple of days ago, still makes me feel kinda paiseh. I literally sent my sms to the wrong person! oops! Not only that, the content of the sms was about the person himself! Shucks! I actually intended to send the sms to Karen instead...

Then when I realized that I had sent the text to the wrong person, I started to scream at myself for my folly. I was screaming in my seat, then I stood up, ran to the masterbed room screaming, then I continue to scream when I went into the toilet. My dad came in to the masterbed room and started to ask me what had happened. "Ahhhh! I sent the wrong message to the wrong person!!!" I yelled. Then I continue to scream as I ran back to my own room.

haha! It was an epic moment really! If the content of the sms did not matter the person, it would not have been that bad. But now, it's clearly regarding the person. I really don't have the face to see him sia... omg omg omg...

Then when I shared it to Karen, she was like "omg! Did he reply?"

ya... he did so after that. I did send another text saying that I had sent the wrong sms previously. =x

Now thinking of the incident again, I still feel utterly silly about it. argh... a moment of folly...

I know that I don't have to feel so paiseh about it. But ahhh! I can't leh... The paisehness is overwhelming me! But I'm feeling so much better now as compared to that day itself. LOL

He even asked me not to worry... wah... the more he says, the more I feel paiseh...

Still laughing at myself for the blunder that I've caused.

However, this is not the first time that I had sent the wrong message to the wrong person. I did that in the past a couple of times too. But the content usually did not concern the recipient.

Oh well, in life, we will face such silly moments. My dad and Karen said that maybe it's God's plan for this incident to happen. hmmm... maybe~

I always believe that things happened for a reason~

Clumsy as I may be, this is who I am. When I was younger, I suffered many injuries due to my clumsiness.

- A television fell on my leg when I was only around 3 years old. I was 'fighting' with my brother, Darius, over the television because I wanted to watch 'Barney and friends' (yes... the purple dinosaur). I do not understand how I had gotten the strength to pull the television until it fell onto my leg. I had to wear a cast. Thank God that my leg is perfectly fine now~ :D

- I broke my arm a couple of times before. Once, I was sitting right on the arch of the bed end. The bed had this arched bar at the 2 ends of it. I was sitting on it until I slipped and fell onto the floor, breaking my arm.

- Another instance whereby I broke my arm was when I was bathing together with Grace in the toilet (I was still very young that time, for your info). Then we played until the floor was very soapy and slippery. I slipped and fell, breaking my arm.

- In the past, Northpoint's food court had very low chairs. After lunch one day, we were walking out of the food court when I slipped and fell. My mouth hit the hard solid chair. From the impact, my lips began to bleed profusely. Now, if you clearly observe my lips, I have a tiny part that is protruding a little.

- I was on a vacation trip with my family at Indonesia. I was having my own play time in the hotel room. I was standing next to the TV console which was almost at the height of my chin that time. Perhaps I was having too much fun until I not carefully bump my chin right at the edge of the TV console, causing it to bleed. Now, you will be able to see a clear scar right under my chin.

- There were other times where I kept falling on my knees. That explains the number of scars on my knees now...

As I look back at my past experiences, I really do think that I was and still am a clumsy person. But I am much more careful now. Most importantly, I would like to thank God for always blessing me. Even though I had suffered many injuries in the past, but never once was my life threatened in any way. Moreover, those injuries had recovered and did not leave any permanent disabilities on me. Only scars remain... but let them serve as a reminder of my past carelessness, and that I should always be thankful to God for keeping me safe~ :)

FAITH

*Always be thankful to God, for He has kept me safe~*

Zebra Day

2011-04-04T11:47:00.003+08:00

Have you seen a zebra dance?

Have you seen a zebra talk?

Have you seen a zebra walk on 2 legs?

Have you seen a zebra literally cross the road?

Have you seen a zebra board the bus?

Haha... obviously you know that the 'zebra' that I am referring to is not the zebra that you see in the wild or in the zoo.

I was a 'zebra' for Friday and Saturday.

What was I doing?

Well, I participated in a 'flashmob' organized by Flair Brothers crew. At first, most of the participants really thought that it was a flashmob. But we were 'cheated' in a certain sense...

In the end, we had to do promotions for Swatch Singapore. The zebra costumes were provided by them. We had to distribute flyers, mingle with the public, take photographs with them, hold banners and signboards. LOL! This is definitely what you call a 'flashmob'.

Flashmob is supposed to be a scene whereby a group of people just randomly perform an item or something (usually unusual or silly) in public.

Well, the only flashmob part was that we danced in our zebra costumes right in the town area of Raffles Place and also at Ion Orchard area.

Oh well, even though we felt pretty silly about the whole thing, but the overall experience for the past 2 days was fun and entertaining~

We also snapped a couple of photos of us in our costumes...

Here's a video of the show at Orchard Road.

Anyway, it was still a good experience. A time that we can do silly things and yet people cannot recognize us! XD

FAITH

*A moment of my life that I became a 'zebra'*

Mystery Begins to Unravel

2011-03-31T12:27:00.003+08:00

Ironically, after trying hard to find the answers to the questions in my head, I managed to find an answer by myself.

For the past few days, I constantly pleaded God to reveal his answers to me. Walah! Today, I found one of the answers by chance.

I'm kinda please with the answer, but yet at the same time, it makes me ponder harder on my own decisions and plans.

Should I carry on with it?

After much thought and reflection, I've decided to carry on with it. The reason is because I see no point in giving up. Moreover, I want to be stubborn. I don't want to give up, not this time. Definitely not this time.

Thank you God for revealing His answer to me. I'm just going to continue walking on this path and see what more will I discover in time to come. God will be my guide~

Therefore, I've learned that we should always trust and rely on God for everything we do. In time to come, according to God's time, we will be able to see the mystery unraveled. Sometimes it may not be the same as what we hope or expect to be, but I am sure that God's plans are always perfect.

FAITH

*Trust and Rely on God, and you will see the wonders of His works*

Worth the Wait

2011-03-30T12:46:00.001+08:00

I was listening to Jordin Sparks - Worth the Wait last night when I was feeling a little down.

Then I chanced upon this another song also called 'Worth the Wait' by Lights Out Dancing.

Omg! The lyrics are so nice! They also kinda explain a bit of how I'm feeling basically...

After listening to this song, it did make me feel a little better.

Oh well, I still feel that it's still all worth the wait! ;D

FAITH

*Worth the Wait*

God is my Confidant

2011-03-27T23:08:00.004+08:00

I was literally losing my patience day by day ever since I told myself that I will wait for that 3-4 years. At the beginning, I held on. However, as time passes, I began to lose that patience. I knew from the very start that this was not going to be easy...

I was losing the patience because I lacked self-confidence.

I was losing the patience because I was beginning to lose my faith in God.

I was losing the patience because I was beginning to feel frustrated.

I was losing the patience because simply I was getting impatient. I wanted to get what I wanted so badly...

Then I prayed to God asking him to grant me patience. I really do need lots and lots of patience. I admit that I am stubborn that I choose to stick to waiting rather than giving up. However, I feel that I have made the right choice. I don't wanna give up all the time.

This time, I wanna be strong. I wanna persevere.

One thing I realized though, through this period of time, is that I constantly relied on God always. In any circumstance, I always prayed. I have to say that God is the most excellent and wonderful confidant that you can ever find. Who else but Him will be willing to listen to all your lamentations, cries, complaints, emotional words? No one but Him alone.

Honestly, I am confused now. At one moment, I thought that the situation was obvious. Now, I'm starting to think that it's not obvious. What is it then?

Oh how I wish wish wish that I can know the answer. But I'm not God. I cannot simply know the answer until God reveals it to me. I really do pray that God will reveal the answer to me soon.

After praying to God just now, I felt so much better. In my prayer, I literally told God that I want to see Him, that I want to hear Him, and that I want to touch Him so that I can feel the warmth of His embrace. I needed the comfort from Him. He gave it to me. It's just that most of the time, I did not realize it.

So now, I would say that everything is still early. I still have so much time to explore and know more.

Therefore, my answer is still to wait. That is God's answer for me. "Wait"

God knows when is the best time for things to change, and for things to be revealed. It's like a mystery. God's mystery plan for my life.

I entrust my life into His hands. I put my faith in Him. I know that things will be 'perfect' after all these are over.

When I knew that this wait was not going to easy, it was really not easy. However with God's help, He has helped me to carry most of my load. The part that I'm carrying now is only a small part, and I am already lamenting. Instead, I should carry on with the path with Him, for I know that as long as I have God by my side, things will definitely be easier than it was.

For now, I shall continue to wait~

FAITH

*Wait, and I shall see God's glory revealed*

University Applications

2011-03-27T22:59:00.002+08:00

I've just applied for the university courses that I am interested in!

The whole application procedure was rather tedious! Not only that, I still have to submit my supporting documents and pay the application fees...

Oh well, all these are done for the sake of my future. Getting into a university will be a really big part of my life, I would have to say. Since young, I always thought about the time whereby I will have to enter university.

Walah! The time is nearing~

Pray pray pray hard that I will get in to a good university and also a good course that is beneficial for me. God shall lead me through this selection.

In addition, I received my final polytechnic semester result. A GPA of 3.38. I know that it is such a fantastic grade but I will still apply for university. Everything is worth a try isn't it? You never know what will happen next. ;)

I've applied for NTU, SMU and SIM. I believe that I will definitely get into at least one of the courses that I've applied. By God's grace, I will be able to achieve that.

Now, I'm just left with the remaining part of the application procedure, and the rest will be left into God's hands~

FAITH

*Everything is worth a try~*

Cute Strawberry Nails

2011-03-18T15:43:00.001+08:00

AWESOME! (Y)

I have just done my nails, and they look so cute! hehe~

Walah! Strawberry nails~ I was learning from Bubzbeauty nail tutorial. (video is below)

As compared to Bubby's, mine is darker in colour.

It doesn't matter, my nails still look cute! :D

FAITH

*Cute nails!*

What True Love Really Is

2011-03-15T19:15:00.001+08:00

Chris Medina! I was so touched by this man when I first watched his audition on American Idol Season 10.

This man has touched the hearts of so many people around the world. It was not because of his fantastic singing, but it was because of his great love for his fiancee.

Chris Medina has showed the world what true love really is. Despite his fiancee getting into an accident, he continued to stay by her side.

He said "what can of guy would I be, if I was to leave when she needs me most?"

From him, we can also learn that love is not about loving the other person's looks or external features, but it is about the person's heart.

Even though Chris did not make it to the Top 24 on American Idol, I feel that he has already won American Idol. haha!

There is such a thing as true love, as long as you believe in it~

FAITH

*True Love comes from the Heart*

Second Contemporary Jazz Open Class

2011-03-15T19:00:00.001+08:00

yoyo! The dance video of the 2nd contemp jazz lesson is finally uploaded! yay!!!

But sadly... I can hardly be seen in this video. Oh well, I still love the choreography~

Enjoy!

FAITH

*Dance is an Expression*

I Am Willing to Wait

2011-03-13T19:12:00.003+08:00

3 to 4 years?

When I heard this, I started to think hard. Am I willing to wait 3-4 years?

At the beginning, my heart was feeling a little uneasy. 3 - 4 years seem like a long time!

But after much thorough reflection, and also having settled my uneasiness, I remembered the bible study that I did for my yesterday's quiet time.

Abraham waited for 25 years before he got his first son, Isaac.

Israel had to be under Egypt's slavery for 430 years before God sent Moses to rescue them!

Jacob waited for 14 years before he could marry Rachel!

So what does these 3 to 4 years mean? Nothing!

God works in His own timing, as He knows what is the best for us.

However I know that this period of 3 to 4 years will not be easy. It will be tough! I will not say that I will be confident and patient. But I do pray for that patience to be instilled within me. I pray for strength to carry on.

This is a trial that I have to face. If I can overcome this trial, I will see the wonders from it~

I do pray hard that during the process of going through these 3 to 4 years, I will remember what I have said in this post. And once this period is over, I will look back and say "It was all worth the wait~ God has blessed me."

My answer now?

I am willing to wait~

FAITH

*God's Time is the Perfect Time*

The Key to Optimism is Faith

2011-03-13T16:31:00.004+08:00

Optimism...

I used to think that I am a very optimistic person. Always thinking positively, always having a smile on my face.

However, I realized that as I begin to face more and more failures in life, especially in relationships, I started to become more realistic or even, pessimistic!

To me, it's kinda unhealthy to be pessimistic, but sometimes, due to the past failures and fears that resulted from them, that had given me such negative thoughts.

For example, I would think the guy I like, thinks that I'm invisible (not literally), but meaning that he does not care about me.

Which such a case, I would start thinking too much and start to build a fear within me. Sometimes, the fear within me will engulf me. I would start to become very emotional, and would often break down in tears.

I would also start to expect lesser things because I was so afraid of being hurt by the opposite outcome.

Anyway, there are couple of flaws that I possess, and I kinda dislike them. However, I know that I cannot really change the way I am.

1. I cry very easily. I am a very emotional person. I think a lot, I feel a lot. Sometimes, little things affect me.

2. I fall for guys very easily. I tried to control that, but feelings are not that easy to control. When you fall for someone, it's not easy to get out of it. I know, because I've experienced it a lot of times.

One very pessimistic thought came to my mind not too long ago, when I was feeling pretty emotional.

My thought: 'Is it wrong to like someone? Why is it that whenever I like someone, negative things always occur and things will never work out?'

When I reflected back, I realized...

It is NEVER a wrong thing to like someone. Because...

God's greatest gift is LOVE. How can I ever say that liking someone is wrong?

No... God even asks us to 'love our neighbours as ourselves'.

Moreover, GOD IS LOVE!

I remember liking the quotes as stated in the above picture.

It was quoted by Winston Churchill.

Why should I be a pessimist? Pessimist actually creates difficulties for themselves!

I should be an optimist instead! Because, in every difficulty, there will always be an opportunity!

A couple of days ago, I was chatting with Karen via msn. I really love this girl to bits cos she has been the one who has been sharing with me about so many things, and also by being my listening ear.

During the conversation, she said something that surprised me a little.

Karen: I wish I were like you

Me: Why?

Karen: you are so optimistic!

After hearing her said this, I thought to myself. "Am I optimistic?"

I then realized one real reason that had contributed to my optimistic character.

The reason is because I constantly have FAITH in GOD!

Faith works wonders~

Faith makes you amazed at how wonderful God is~

Faith is the 'tool' that perseveres a person~

Faith builds up relationships~

Because of faith, I believed.

Because of faith, I persevered.

Because of faith, I am loved.

Faith is the absolute key to optimism. Whenever I suffer an emotional setback (usually due to relationship problems), I will always and always pray to God.

God is my comforter. My best friend who never stop listening to my lamentations. My father who loves me and cares for me.

At the end of the day, I will come to see how God has worked in my life. It is simply amazing~ Too perfect, too wonderful~

And because of my faith in God, I am still persevering now. I am and I will! Cos God will show me His works, His PERFECT works in my life one day.

I was doing my quiet time last night, and I read something that struck me.

It wrote:

- Everything God intends, will happen: "Surely, just as I have intended so it has happened, and just as I have planned, so it will stand." (Isaiah 14:24)

- Our loving Father is profoundly interested in every detail of your life. He will see you through the end... if you will let Him do it His way and on His timetable.

I absolutely love the sentence that states 'Our loving Father is profoundly interested in every detail of your life.'

How amazing that is! Who else will be that interested in every detail of our lives but God?

I believe things will work out. In His time. I just have to be patient, and let Him do His way and on His timetable. :)

FAITH

*Because of Faith in God, I am loved~*

God's Ultimate Plan

2011-03-10T00:23:00.005+08:00

Talking about mere coincidence, was it really a coincidence or part of God's ultimate plan just now?

If I was to say what I think, I will say that God planned it all. From start to finish.

God really works in ways we cannot see, and I am so so so amazed at His wondrous works! I was so astounded when I saw how God worked in the little areas of my life.

There's a phrase in Ashley Tisdale's song called 'We'll be together', it went...

"Good things come when we least expect them"

Good things will definitely come when we do not expect so much from life. I believe God will bless you richly if you do not demand much from Him.

People are starting to say that things are getting obvious... I think I should start cutting it down.

For the next one week, starting from today, I'm going to refrain myself from a certain temptation. I hope I can do it!

I shall wait & see~

FAITH

*God works in ways we cannot see*

Falling In Love

2011-03-04T00:20:00.003+08:00

Falling in love is such a simple but yet a complicated thing...

Looking at my past crushes, I reflect and think 'what is it about them that made me attracted to them?' I don't know the answers honestly. I feel that that is all about falling in love.

I read from somewhere which said 'trying to explain the reason why you love someone is like trying to describe the taste of plain water'. Exactly~ :)

Things that I've discovered in regards to falling in love:

- You get very sensitive about the person, about every actions or things that he say. You're just afraid to lose him and that he might like another person.

- You tend to stalk him, unknowingly and maybe even with a purpose. But yes! Don't deny it, girls~ haha

- You constantly check your facebook or sms or msn to see whether has he replied you (when you had only just send him a message a minute ago). LOL

- You always have the urge to talk to him, but sometimes you don't know how to or don't even dare to do so.

- The tiniest thing that he does or says to you (e.g. commenting on your facebook status) makes you jump for joy as though you have just struck a lottery!

- Girls especially love to share about things regarding the guy they like, to their friends. It can even be the slightest thing like "hey gal! The shirt that (the guy's name) wore today is so cute on him!"

- You will find all possible ways to ask the guy out. Yes! You will find all sorts of cheeky ways to ask him out!

- Some girls, I know, will go and make friends with his buddies to get more information about him and also to gain his attention. hmmm... I've never tried that before. XD

- Some girls, I know, will even take up the same interests as him! E.g. He loves soccer, so you try to appreciate soccer and may even go and pick up soccer!

- When you go on a shopping trip, you may even want to get something for him too~

- You think of him almost ever second! Sometimes, you even dream of him. He preoccupies your mind!

- When you see him, it's either you become very talkative or you become very silent. It's simply because you don't know how to act properly in front of him! But I know deep down inside, you're dying to talk to him! ;DDD

- You stay up late hoping to see him online so that you can talk to him.

- When you're sad, you want him to be the first one to comfort you.

- When you're happy, you want him to be the first one to share your joy.

- When you're angry, you want him to be there to give you a hug to cool you down.

- When you're tired, you want him to be there to give you a shoulder to lean on.

- When you're jealous, you want him to tell you that he loves you.

- When you're cold, you want him to put his jacket around you to make you feel warm.

The list goes on...

There are so many things that I've discovered. I will admit that some of my past experiences were not that good, but things happened for a reason. God placed certain people in your life for a reason.

I used to lament to God and asked why is it that I always cannot seem to get things right with the guy I like.

Now reflecting back... I know the reasons why. I realized that those guys that I had liked once, were not the suitable one for me. Moreover, they're definitely not God's chosen one for me.

There's a well-known saying that goes 'Love Is Blind'.

I totally disagree with it!

Love is not blind. In fact, love opens your eyes. In love, you come to understand every single bit of the person. It's not that love makes you blinded to the person's flaws, it's just that you are willing to accept his flaws and see them as his strengths instead!

Love is about acceptance. Love is about building a relationship with someone. Love is undying. Love is everlasting! Just like how God loves us!

For me? I used to be so afraid of falling in love because of the past rejections and failures that I had encountered in the past. There was once when I was rejected by a guy, I literally told myself that I will not fall in love again until a guy comes up to me and tells me he loves me.

Rather silly huh? Now, I will tell myself to never be afraid of falling in love because LOVE is such a wonderful and beautiful thing that God has created. Falling in love is awesome, in fact!

Currently, I am reading a book called 'How to Get a Date Worth Keeping?' by Dr Henry Cloud. It's a very interesting book. I must say that I not a fan of books, but this book kept me reading on.

One thing interesting that this book had taught me is that I should not be just sitting back and waiting for God to bring my Prince Charming to my doorstep. No no no! God did ensure us that we can find a person that will become our suitable partners, but it does not mean that God will literally bring him to our doorstep!

"Ding Dong!"

"Hi! Who are you?"

"Hello! I'm the Chosen one for you! God sent me here!"

LOL!!!

That's not that possible right? Even if so, it will scare the hell out of you!

The author stated that instead of waiting, we should carry out the actions ourselves.

If we do not sow, how can we reap the harvest?

The same applies, if we do not make an initiative to find our future partners, then how can we find a suitable person for us then?

Oh well! I've talked a lot now!

But ya! Falling in love is not a scary thing, it's a wonderful thing in life!

Therefore folks, never be afraid to fall in love because you never know what's out there for you~ All you need to do is just to step out of your door, and explore the world outside! God will lead you from there and I'm certain that God's works will amaze you~ :D

Cheers!

FAITH

*LOVE - God's wonderful gift*

My First Make-up Tryout

2011-03-02T18:21:00.001+08:00

I was soooo freaking bored today! For the whole day, I was watching youtube videos including make-up tutorials from Michelle Phan, 2Ne1 TV, and Super Junior Full House (re-watching it again! hoho~)

Then, I decided to improve my make-up skills. Thus I went to watch a make-up tutorial from Michelle Phan called 'Hippie Princess : Spring Edition 1'.

Yup! I tried to do the same~ :D

Actual look from Michelle Phan

My imitated look

The difference among the 3 photos of me is the headband, as you can see.

Yes, I know that my make-up is not as good as compared to Michelle's, and obviously my face looks darker in the photos (cos my webcam quality isn't that good). Plus, I know my make-up cannot be really seen in the photos. Oh well, there's still an effort put in~ :)

But, I had fun trying out the make-up! hehe!

Will try again next time!

The actual video of Michelle Phan~

FAITH

*Beauty is skin-deep*

Contemporary Jazz Lesson

2011-03-01T21:04:00.001+08:00

Hey all! The video is the contemporary jazz lesson that I had attended at O school last Thursday.

Contemp jazz is awesome! Gonna brush up my dance skills!

FAITH

*Dance, my Passion*

God, My Compass

2011-02-28T12:40:00.002+08:00

I remembered venting a lot of my emotions on facebook and on my blog a couple of months ago. At that time, I was confused, I was frustrated.

Then not long ago, another big confusion came upon me. I was wrestling with my own emotions this time. I felt utterly fickle-minded, utterly stressed out. I kept praying and praying to God to help me get through this tide.

HE DID! :D

A couple of days ago, Karen came to talk to me. At first, I didn't want to reveal so much information to her. However, being myself, I poured out all my feelings and thoughts to her. Ironically, talking to her helped me to settle my confused thoughts.

Then, I knew. God has told me His answer. :)

God uses many various ways to talk to us. It maybe through the bible. It maybe through the people around us.

I was surprised that I was not only not sad, but I was filled with joy and relief! Amen!

God is my compass or you may even say that He's my GPS (in modern term). LOL!

But YES! He is my compass! He knows which is the right way for me to go. Sometimes I get lost is not because God left me in the lurch, but it's simply because I chose to shut my ears and not listen to His kind and patient instructions for me.

Now, I've seen God's awesome glory and His absolute love for me!

I do not know how will things go next, with my whole new perspective and mindset. However, I do believe that it is all part of God's perfect plan for me.

God knows what is BEST for us. Even though it may not be perfect in our eyes, but it is so very perfect in His eyes~

FAITH

*God is my Compass*

A Summary Of My Polytechnic Life

2011-02-21T15:13:00.011+08:00

When I completed my final understanding test this morning, it marked the end of my poly life and the beginning of my loooong holiday! hoho~

Oh well... All those sweet reminiscence...

Let's recall what had happened during my entire 3 years in RP.

Year 1- Semester 1

My first class - W36K

I remembered that I was the quietest girl in the class. Well, it was not because I was really quiet, but because I was unable to mix well with my classmates except a few only.

What a 'great' start of my poly life huh?

Year 1 - Semester 2

One of my favourite classes, W34B

That period of time was really enjoyable! oh... I miss my pals~

Year 2 - Semester 1

My first DHHM (Diploma in Hotel & Hospitality Management) class, E66A

It was a total different experience for me being classmates with students from other courses and students from DHHM. haha! DHHM students are more shiong & are chiong-sters! LOL

Year 2 - Semester 2

My Favourite Class of my entire RP life! E54F!!!

I would say that I had tons & tons & tons of fun and laughter with E54F! misses~

I also made lots of friends in this class. I miss all the time that we have had! sad...

Year 3 - Semester 1

I was separated with some of my good pals during this period of time because I was having my internship and they were having their lessons in school.

I remembered my internship experience at Amara Sanctuary Resort! There was joy, fun, happiness, as well as frustrations, unhappiness and anger. Oh well, one thing that I have taken back from this internship is that I will never ever work in the hotel industry in the future!

But yea... I do miss some of my colleagues there...

Year 3 - Semester 2

Back to school life after 6 months of internship. At that time, I needed some time to adapt back to RP life because I was quite accustomed to the work life then.

For this semester, I did not have much fun. The first reason is because I changed classes everyday, which made it hard for me to have a group of friends that I could stick to. Secondly, majority of my pals were having their internship.

I kept wishing that I would quickly graduate and end this semester fast. Well, walah! Today's the day that my wish has come true. Sounds pathetic huh?

hmmm... actually no... It's not pathetic. I still miss my poly life, and the end of it marks a new phase in my life. University.

Another thing that made a huge impact in my poly life was my dance life in RP.

Style Groovaz Crew (SGC)

Even though now I'm no longer going back to SGC, but there are still so many sweet memories that I have had with SGC.

Bootcamp '08!

My team: IDK

Junior Debut Showcase

My team: Territorial Embark

MUSE '08

Bootcamp '09

I was the leader of one of the freshies group~

Flame Awards '09!

Theme: Angels & Demons

IFC Concert Performance

Jam & Hop '09

Momentum '09

MUSE '09

Board of Governors Performance (2010)

Ministry of Home Affairs Performance (2010)

Open House '10

Danzation '11!!!

awww... I miss my life in RP so badly and now it has ended...

Oh well, that's part and parcel of life. What stays are the sweet memories~ :)

This is the conclusion of my poly life.

FAITH

*Sweet Reminiscence*

It's almost time to say 'Goodbye'

2011-02-12T23:11:00.005+08:00

It was the last day of school of my entire 3 years of poly life in RP yesterday. It then made me realized how fast time really flies. It only seems like yesterday when I got into RP...

This shows that I'm graduating from poly soon! It is mix of feelings really... A mix of joy and a mix of sadness.

Kinda feeling 不舍得 when I come to think about leaving poly life. My friends, my facilitators, my school life, dance, the fun and the time of bonding that I have had with my friends...

Now I'm left with another 5 more days of UT3 before I can really say 'goodbye' to RP. It's my final phase! I'll miss RP~

What is left are the memories...

FAITH

*Memories*

新年快乐

2011-02-05T16:50:00.003+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year to Everyone!!!

It's already the third day of the lunar new year, and I'm enjoying my long weekend~ :D

Had been visiting my relatives with my family for the past 2 days, and had collected quite a number of hong baos!

Anyway, what I'm blogging here is not to boast about the number of hong baos that I've collected during this festive period. What I'm going to blog about is the underlying meaning of Chinese New Year.

Well, after having a time of family devotion last night, my parents discussed about the importance of family reunion and communication with our relatives. It is true that we only get to see many of our relatives only at least once a year, so we should make the effort to interact with them if possible. It is true that each time I meet my relatives, I find it hard to open my mouth to talk to them. However, that should not be so. Then, what's the point of family reunion???

How have your Chinese New Year been? I do hope that there have been a good time of bonding with your family & relatives. :)

For now, have a blessed Chinese New Year! Cheers!!!

FAITH

*祝大家新年快乐*

I miss you Blacky...

2011-02-01T16:53:00.002+08:00

On 29th January 2011, approximately 10.50am, Blacky passed away while lying on my palm.

Even as I'm typing these words down now, I'm still grieving over his death. I miss him sooo much...

The whole thing happened when I went to check out the hamsters' cages in the morning, as usual, for their feeding time. Then I was shocked when I saw Blacky overturned on his back. At that point of time, I knew that something was amiss. I picked him up and lay him on my right palm.

He was gasping for air at that point of time already... He was too weak to even stand. Then I knew that he was dying...

So I let him lie on my palm as I stroke his fur gently with my left hand. I wept very bitterly. However, this was not the first time that I had witnessed the process of death already. I could not take it when it a happened to another of my hamsters called, Jacky.

During the whole process of witnessing Blacky dying, I kept praying to God to let go of his life because I know that it is time for him to leave this world.

Approximately 50 minutes later, he took his last breath and his last stretch before his heart stopped beating.

I miss you so so so much Blacky...

Even though I don't believe that animals have spirits, but I still believe that God still controls lives and deaths. Therefore, I believed that God had taken Blacky's life away that day, and God had chosen that particular day to do so.

In His Time... God has His plans worked in His Time~

FAITH

*In His Time*

The Gift of Singleness

2011-01-28T23:19:00.003+08:00

oh well! oh well! I don't know why, but this morning when I woke up, I felt so happy. There was this joy within me. A sense of comfort, a sense of peace. The feeling was GOOD~ :D

I saw the awesomeness and wonders of being single, and I'm loving it now~

Weird huh? You might think.

Anyway what's the point of getting into a relationship so early when your purpose is to get married?

Sooo... Why not enjoy being single when you can? xP

I really felt this sense of joy within me. I believe it's God's work then~

After going through certain trials, it really make me reflect & think. I do feel happier now! :D

Thank you God for everything~

FAITH

*The Gift of Singleness~*

Patiently waiting for God's answer

2011-01-27T17:41:00.004+08:00

I've thought it through...

I've talked it through...

I've prayed it through...

And now, I will not think so much about it...

It's rather ironic... I used to want it so much in the past, but now, I feel that I'm not ready...

Since I am not ready, then there is no point for me to ponder over it so much then...

I will still continue to pray for it though...

I will wait patiently upon God's answer for me. :)

FAITH

"but those who hope in the LORD

will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint."

(Isaiah 40:31)

The Chosen One

2011-01-26T10:21:00.003+08:00

*There isn't a such thing as the Right one, but the Chosen one*

I used to think that there is a right person out there for me. However, now I've learned that there's no such thing as the Right person or Mr Right.

No one is perfect in this world. Everyone has their own flaws. We cannot expect to find the Mr Perfect or Ms Perfect one day.

I was inspired by Daniel's wedding invitation card which I saw a couple of days ago.

It wrote:

"Chosen, Not the Right One"

I then realized that our future partners are the people that God has chosen to place in our lives.

That is why sometimes people might ask "If there is a right person for everyone in this world, then why are there cases of divorces or singleness?"

The answer is because it was God's choice for doing so.

He carefully chooses the most suitable person that can complement you. Most importantly, the person that He has chosen for you is to build you up in your life. That is why sometimes we may see couples that are totally different from each other. One person may be very extroverted, while the other is introverted.

Well... What can I say but to say that God has a special purpose for having certain plans set for us in our lives.

And... I believe that God's plans are perfect even though we may see His plans as imperfect. :)

Therefore, trust in God always. You never know what plans God has set for you!

God Bless everyone! :D

FAITH

*There isn't a such thing as the Right one, but the CHOSEN one*

Is it worth it?

2011-01-25T12:02:00.002+08:00

Is it worth it to fight so hard for a guy?

Is it worth it to pursue your own happiness while knowing that someone else might get hurt?

Is it worth it to put in so much effort to win the guy's heart but yet he doesn't seem to care?

Is it worth it to go beyond this friendship?

Is it worth it to fight so hard when you know that someone else likes the same person as you do?

Is it worth it???

The answer is that I don't know... but I know there will be pain and disappointment involved in this whole process.

I fear... I really fear... but what else can I do but to wait patiently on God's will.

Is it worth the wait?

What is God's plan and purpose for me?

2011-01-23T17:15:00.002+08:00

I'm still rather confused...

What is God's purpose & plan for me?

Why did He put me in this position in the first place?

If so, then why did He place these people in my life?

Why do I have these emotions?

Why those stories? What do they mean? What are you trying to imply? What are you trying to tell me Lord?

Is this part of your plan? If so, I pray that you'll reveal them to me Lord, for I know you love me and will not harm me.

'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the LORD, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.' (Jeremiah 29:11)

FAITH

*GIGGLE - Growing In God's Great Love Everyday*

Forever Lord, I will do this~

Laughter, the Best Medicine

2011-01-18T21:44:00.004+08:00

la la la~ I was so bored in class today that I began to search for links that would entertain me.

Walah! I found a couple of links, and one of them is 'www.engrish.com'!

hohoho! I was laughing all the way when I read all the broken English!

Enjoy folks! :D

I also posted all these into my new Tumblr! HEE!

FAITH

*Laughter, the Best Medicine*

Start of the Year 2011

2011-01-10T22:55:00.006+08:00

Hey yo! Talking about the start of the year 2011, actually it has been 10 days since the new year! LOL

Anyway, I was way too busy to blog about the recent happenings. Well, that's because I had too many events to attend to! hoho!

Talking about being busy, I'm finally free now! yay!

First Event: Christmas Family Gathering @ My House

My maternal side's relatives came to my house for a simple Christmas gathering on Christmas eve. :D

We had turkey, log cake, and lots & lots of food! woohoo! yumz~

Ice Cream Log Cake! Absolutely delicious~

My cutie little cousin Pin Fei sulking while hugging tight to the gift that Grace & I gave her! XD

Little Pin Fei thinking that she's very pretty with her fake earrings. LOL

Family Photo!

Second Event: Christmas Party @ Church

Games time

RIBs

Log Cake again!

After that, we had a Christmas dinner with my family @ Sharon's house with her family.

Sharon's teddy & I

Youths

Third Event: Collage Making with RIBs@ Sharon's house for CK's & Alexis' wedding

Fourth Event: Baking Session with RIBs@ Sharon's house for CK's & Alexis' wedding party

Sheryl mixing the batter

Completed Bread Pudding!

Fifth Event: Ching Kit & Alexis' Wedding Service & Dinner

Arrival of the Wedding couple

Good Food!

The Girls

Sixth Event: Kang's Farewell (did not upload any photos for this post)

Seventh Event: DANZATION @ University Cultural Centre

On the Stage

RIBs came to support us! :D

SGC + NRA

Walah! Look at the number of events that had happened within the short period of time. Phew!

Now, I'm free!!! hoho~

Yea... But I still have a lot of things to do.

For this new year, I've embarked on my new role as a DGL for the new batch of confirmation group. Well, after leading them for 2 weeks, I feel that my kids ain't bad. In the actual fact, they're actually rather kuai! Thank God!

Next, I will want to take up driving lessons, more dance lessons, and vocal lessons! woohoo! Can't wait!

Another one month or so to the end of school, which means the time whereby I will officially graduate from RP. Wow! Time flies really soooooooo freaking fast!

FAITH

This new year 2011 will be a special year~ :)

The Closing End of the Year 2010

2010-12-30T21:00:00.004+08:00

Oh wow! I'm actually studying for my Management Accounting understanding test! hoho~ (sarcastic laugh)

What to do? On the first day of school after the 2 weeks holidays, I am slammed with the test of a subject which I totally haaaaaate! arrrgghh...

I wonder who is that idiot who put the UT right on the first day of school after the new year, thinking that the students will actually study during the new year huh?

Moreover, I really don't have the time to study over the public holidays, cos I'll be attending Ching Kit & Alexis' wedding on the 1st & 2nd Jan. woohoo! I can't wait for their wedding~ LOL

Yep... That's why today is the only best day that I can actually study for the test. What to say when it comes to my weakest subject? oh man...

Anyway, away from all my lamentations... The year 2010 is coming to an end!!! waaahh!!! Time reaaaaaally flies!

With a blink of an eye, walah! Bye bye 2010! Hello 2011!

This year had been a great year! What left me the most impact should be my internship @ Amara Sanctuary Resort because it took up 6 months of my whole year of 2010. Seriously speaking, I'm so glad that it is over~ :D

I'm kinda looking forward to 2011. Wondering how will my embarkation of my role as a DGL be like?

In addition, I'll be graduating from RP by March next year.

University? I have no idea about it yet.

I'm also looking forward to take up courses such as driving, vocal, dance!

For now, I'll just concentrate on my final 2 months of school in RP, and also to perform well for the upcoming Danzation happening next week on 7th & 8th Jan '11!

It's time to think of my new year resolutions once again! :D

FAITH

“A new year is unfolding –

like a blossom with petals curled tightly concealing the beauty within.”

The True Meaning of Christmas

2010-12-24T23:42:00.003+08:00

Christmas is here!!! I really do love this festive season a lot, but sadly, the whole idea of Christmas is twisted in this new commercial setting...

Many non-believers will think that Christmas will mean....

Santa Claus

Some with think that Christmas is about receiving lots & lots gifts...

Some will think that it is a period for tons of shopping!!!

Others will think that it is a period to decorate their house with nice decorations...

Sadly, not many people actually the true meaning of Christmas.

Christmas is the day to commemorate Jesus Christ birth. The day when God sent his one and only beloved son, down to this world.

I hope that one day, people will come to understand what Christmas really is.

Today's family gathering was really awesome. A time to get together, a time to bond. This is also what I feel Christmas is about. A time to share this wonderful day with your non-Christian relatives.

Lastly, MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!!! :D

FAITH

'Today is the day that the Lord has made,

I will rejoice and be glad in it!"

Sore Throat!

2010-12-13T22:50:00.003+08:00

Arrghhhh.... My sore throat sux!

Oh man! This morning, I was still able to speak a little, but I don't know why would my voice changed when I stepped into school.

Hence, I suffered quite a fair bit during lesson today.

I couldn't share much of my ideas in the team's discussion... I was unable to show active participation in class... Worst of all, I wasn't even able to present during the 3rd meeting! Gosh! My team mates had to cover for me. Thank you teammates! :D

The funny thing is that my voice is coming back now. Perhaps the environment does affect my voice...

I have a feeling that I might miss school for a day or two. Well, I regretted going to school today, maybe I won't regret it tomorrow if I don't attend lesson! (oops!)

I just need ample rest. A day should do, but there's dance tomorrow! oh man...

Holidays are in just less than a week! Dear throat, please recover soon!

FAITH

'Many things always come unexpected~'

In His Time

2010-12-12T22:04:00.002+08:00

oh man... I'm having a really terrible sore throat... :(

I was already feeling the soreness a few days ago, but my voice suddenly 'broke' yesterday when I was at Shi Jia's house.

The worst part?

I was on duty today as the support singer. Not only was I unable to reach the high notes, I began to cough real badly when I started singing 'Your Name'.

Omg! In front of the whole congregation, *cough* *cough* *cough*

It was bad... Really bad...

Well, I did pray to God for his healing to be upon me. However, I believe everything happen for a reason. He has his own time for everything. Sometimes we may think that now is the time, but to him, there's an even better time!

So ya... some people might ask why God didn't heal my sore throat, I will say that He has His own reasons for not doing so.

Anyway, Grace & I headed off to meet Shi Jia yesterday after support singing prac with Alvin & Terence.

It was a time to cut my hair, thread the eyebrows, and dye our hair!!! XD

I totally love my hair cut. My hair feels much lighter and thinner now! HEE!

Threading my eyebrows was a whole new experience, but it was great! I would say that threading eyebrows is better than shaving or plucking (ouch!). It hurts a little when you thread, but it's fast & efficient! I like!

My hair colour didn't turn out as the colour I wanted... It is also not evenly covered all over my head. Hence, I'll be re-dying my hair another day with my new colour 'Cassis Berry'! woohoo~

Oh ya! Hannah's here in Singapore, at my house now. I can totally tell that my brother is so so so happy! I kept on having that smile on his face. :)

Oh well, now all I hope is for my throat to heal. I'm not even sure whether will I be going to school tomorrow or not. It all depends on my throat, or else I will not be able to present properly tomorrow...

FAITH

*We may always think that we are right in certain things,

but only God knows what is RIGHT*

Back on the Beat, Dancing~

2010-12-11T00:28:00.005+08:00

After attending today's dance lesson, I realized that I have not actually lost my passion and interest towards dance! It was quite a refreshing feeling really to be back on my feet, dancing away to the beat~ :D

Dance has always been my passion ever since I was a little. I have been dancing for around 13 years of my life!!!

I've also explored the different types of genres. From Chinese dance to a little bit of contemporary to bboy & hiphop. Well, I'm still exploring more genres now. :)

I'm gonna dye my hair tomorrow! woohoo!

I'm also going to trim my fringe and thin my hair, thread my eyebrows too! weeeeeee!!!

Cannot wait!!! hohohoho!

I hope tomorrow's makeover will turn out good~ XD

FAITH

"TGIS! Thank God it's Saturday!"

A brand new perspective, a brand new start

2010-12-07T12:36:00.005+08:00

"Oh God, show to me your plan for my life~"

I've decided! I've come to a whole new decision and perspective. :)

After all those situations, I've decided not to enter into any relationship as for now. I'm deciding to appreciate the wonders of 'singlehoodness' first before I come down to a plan to settle down into a relationship.

After talking to some of my close buddies, I realised that I'm still at an immature age to get into any relationship. Even though I have never been into one, but I'll grasp this new perspective of mine. To wait upon God's time for the 'right' one to come. :)

I know that now is just simply not the 'right' time.

It's actually a rather refreshing feeling, I must say. This morning, I woke up having a whole new feeling, like a glow within and outside of me. I just don't know how to explain that feeling.

I've never thought about such a thing before and this is the first. I realised that I'm always rushing into things, that's why I caused myself to be hurt all the time. I have learned to be patient and to wait for God to work in my life there and then.

I'm not sure how long I'll be having this mentality, but I'm sure for now, that's the way it is~

FAITH

"Come What May"

The Final Phase of my Teens

2010-12-03T23:59:00.001+08:00

Today is the day that shouts "I AM 19 YEARS OLD!!!"

This also signifies that it is the final phase of my teenage years.

Sad sad...

Anyway, I just wanna say a BIG BIG "THANK YOU" to everyone for their well wishes! I really really really appreciate it even for that few words "Happy Birthday".

I would also like to thank my church friends (Kang, Ching Kit, Alvin, Grace aka TV, Sharon Ho, Sharon Chan, Joshua, Grace Arul, Samuel Tee, Sheryl, Clarence & Benedict) for celebrating my birthday just now!

It was simply fun & awesome! Above all, thank you all for the time of bonding!

God had really blessed me with so many people who care for me~ The most important part is that I would like to thank God for this birthday as it reminds me of the day, 19 years ago, where He brought me to this world. He is my creator, He is my Father!

I give thanks for this day and I will remember it in my heart!

LOVE LOVE LOVE you all!!! XD

Trials in Life

2010-12-01T12:53:00.005+08:00

This morning, I woke up thinking about it again. I guess I cannot release that thought so soon as yet.

I realized that I'm quite a good actress. Feeling painful inside, but acting in front of my family members as if nothing had happened before.

The fact is that my heart is still hurting...

It's like a knife plunged down into my heart, and I am trying with all my might to pull out the blade, but it hurts too much to do so. Some of my dear friends are also trying to help me to pull out this knife, but none of us has the strength to do so.

Only Jesus can help me to pull out this blade from my heart. However because it will hurt too much to remove the blade all at one go, Jesus will have to pull out the blade inch-by-inch so that I won't feel that much pain. Every little inch pulled out would still cause me to tear, but I can overcome this pain.

When this blade is finally out one day, there will still be a hole in my heart. That is when only Jesus can do the healing process.

I have to learn how to let go, but I know that this time it is not as easy as it seems because I cannot the fact that I have to meet the person face-to-face more often in the future.

God, please guide me. Please give me strength to go through this turmoil.

Thank you for sending angels to comfort me.

Perhaps it is just simply not the right time for this to happen. I will wait patiently.

In you I put my trust, Lord.

FAITH

"The only way to learn strong faith is to endure great trials."

I need you Jesus

2010-11-30T22:23:00.003+08:00

I need you Jesus. I really really need you.

You've heard my prayers, you've seen my tears. Why do things turn out the way it is?

My heart hurts but I'll stand strong. Please give me strength to get through this. I don't want this anymore... I'm confused. I'm so so confused, Lord.

I told myself a year ago that I will never have to go through this again, but why was my heart led astray?

Why am I so naive to even think that this is possible?

At the end, it's just a one-sided thing and I've caused myself to get my heart broken.

Is it plain foolishness or is it the fact that I just think too much?

Why Lord why???

Show me your plans Lord. I lift my life to you. I still have a great faith that you still have a wonderful plan for me.

Help me to learn how to be patient Lord, and not to rush into things.

Show me the way Lord. Show me the way.

My heart still aches but I know the pain will fade away.

Please give me your comfort and strength to continue walking.

Let not my will but yours be done.

Tomorrow will be a better day.

Amen.

Off-site lesson

2010-11-24T21:06:00.005+08:00

It's been 2 months since my internship @ Amara Sanctuary Resort had ended.

Well, I'm back to school now, and it has been 7 weeks already! Honestly speaking, I'm looking forward so much towards the H-O-L-I-D-A-Y-S!!!

Can't wait!

3 more days to Youth Camp! It's time to pack up and get ready to go!

For this year's youth camp, I'm taking on a role that I've never taken on before.

I'm going to be a facilitator for the workshop during the camp, and I have to lead morning devotions!!! hoho!

Well, all these are meant to help me practice in my upcoming role as a DG leader.

Yep, I'm taking the confirmation group next year, together with my new partner, Alvin.

I really pray that things will go well, and fulfill my purpose as a DGL!

For today's MICE lesson, my class had an off-site trip to Suntec city for an exhibition called the 'China Sourcing Fair'.

haha~ But after touring around the exhibition for not more than 10 mins, my team decided to head out of the exhibition.

YAWNZ...

We then headed to do our team's 'ppt' on a majong paper, then had our lunch @ Pizza Hut @ Marina Square.

Halfway thru the lunch, Hin & Jessie started to tell ghost stories relating to their experience during their internship.

That totally gave Pey Wen & I lots & lots of GOOSEBUMPS!!! brrrrrr.....

Anyway, off-site lessons are so much more fun & relaxing than having lessons in class. XD

Danzation practices tomorrow & Friday!

Gonna be busy the next few days...

P.s. Just got my nail colour changed! Awesomeness~

FAITH

All things,

whatsoever ye shall Ask in Prayer,

Believing,

ye shall Receive.

(Matthew 21:22)

Back to Blogging & a Change of Blogskin!

2010-11-23T22:27:00.011+08:00

I'm finally back to blogging after about 6 months?! hoho!

Anyway, I'm just so happy that I've changed my blogskin and I simply love it!

It's time to start updating about my life ever since my internship had ended about 2 months ago.

I'll be back~ :)

Faith

"Faith is being sure of what we hope for

and

certain of what we do not see"

(Hebrews 11:1)

Wrestling with the thought of 'Responsibility'

2010-05-10T10:25:00.005+08:00

I'm now sitted down, typing these plain words on the keyboard, in the cold office, with hardly anyone around.

I'm bored, I'm tired, but I have no choice but to be stucked here.

It's not that I hate my job, it's just that I don't like to work. It's like an everyday routine. Sometimes, I feel that it's taking too much of my time.

In the actual fact, I have not gone for dance for a looooong time.

3 more months to go... Honestly, I feel that time really passes real quick! I'm already half-way through my internship.

However, I feel like changing departments, because being an intern, you are required to learn more things, and I want to do so.

And as I am typing these words, the phone has already rang a couple of times.

Furthermore, a lot people has left the company just within the last 3 months since I stepped in.
This is one of the common industries whereby people will always job-hop. Sadly, I cannot do so...

Talking about my near future plans, I am facing a dilemma because of it. I'm still thinking whether should I continue in the club. I really want to leave, but it's because of one thing that makes me want to stay. That is 'Responsibility'.
However, Grace told me "How long can responsibility bring you to?" '

Her words rang in my head when she said that.

It's true. How long and how far can responsibility take me? I would rather use my time wisely and spend it on things that I love to do.

I'm still thinking through...

Hospitality Industry = Tough Industry

2010-04-10T22:14:00.002+08:00

HELLO BLOG! I'M BACK!!!

It's a waaaaaaaaay loooooooooooooooooong time since I've last stepped in here... Gosh! I can see how much work can take time away from your own personal life. So, WELCOME TO THE WORKING WORLD!

Another sickening thing is that my freaking laptop cannot be logged in due to my password! I have to make a trip down to school just to change my freaking password!!! arrrgghh... So irritating! For the fact that I have so little time for my own personal things, how would I be able to fork out time to make a trip to school? sigh... This sucks...

Anyway, my job as a Reservations Agent has been pretty smooth. No doubt, I've already met some difficult guest, such as some who demands alot. However, those cannot compare to what I have experienced today. I had taken over the job of a Guest Service Agent for today, giving the role to check in 'Shell', a corporate group consisting of 59 rooms in total!

Some of the guests are very nice, but when they become impatient, their face will literally change colour. I understand how they feel when they have to wait so long for their rooms to be ready. However, can you spare a thought thinking about how much time we need to prepare 59 rooms?! Gosh... I believe the Housekeeping Department would had been having a headache just now.

What could I do?

If I say too much, the guests will definitely find more things to say...

If I don't say anything, they will think that I am ignorant...

So my solution?

JUST SAY 'SORRY'

One guest even asked me not to say 'sorry'. Then tell me, what should I say then? So in the end, to please the unhappy guests, we had to switch their rooms to other rooms that were already vacant clean. DONE!

PHEW!

So please... next time if you were to check in to a hotel, please spare a thought for the staffs.

For this experience, i had also gained the experience and knowledge of how it is to be in the hotel industry, and also how it is to meet angry guests face-to-face.

After the crowd and all the stressfulness, I became really nauseous and tired. And yes, I really puked after having eaten a little. I think being a Reservations Agent is soooo much better. However I have no choice. As an intern, I have to learn and gain experience, so I am going to the reception one day. soon...

For now, tata~ and hope that I can come back and blog soon if I have the time.

Time is really precious~

First Day of Internship @ Amara Santuary Resort Sentosa

2010-03-03T22:34:00.002+08:00

Awesome! Awesome! Awesome!!!
This is what I can say about Amara Santuary Resort.

Well, it's my first day of IIP @ Amara Santuary Resort Sentosa. The best thing? The grooming standards! woohoo! The uniforms are not only light-weighted and comfortable, we are even allowed to wear slippers! weee~~~ This means no heels to kill my feet when I'm tired! yay! xD Long hours of standing won't kill me!

Work had been pretty slack today, but what can I say, it's the 1st day of work. More work will come sooner after that.

I tell you the most epic thing that had happened this morning! I met up with Yong En & joshua @ Habourfront MRT station, and were eagerly waiting for Hin to arrive. Then Yong En called Hin asking where he is. He said he would reach after one more stop. So we waited... waited... waited... It was freaking going to 8.30am(!), and if it passed 8.30am, we would miss the shuttlebus! Gosh! In the end, Hin actually took bus there and was already waiting outside of the MRT station. Hence, we missed the shuttlebus despite reaching on time...
Solution? We decided to take a cab. However, we could not flag a cab due to the yellow box near the stand! So we decided to walk further down to Vivo City to flag one. Little did we know our attempts to flag a cab was stopped by the auxiliary police standing on the overhead bridge above. He stopped us twice!!! Gosh! Thus, we bo bian had to walk all the way to Vivo's taxi stand to wait for a cab. It was already 8.55am on the clock! We're already late, taking the fact that we were supposed to report at 8.45am...
So, we managed to get a cab. When the taxi driver made a turn to the same stand outside the MRT station, we asked the driver to make a halt. We paid 4 bucks for the very short trip, board the 9 o' clock shuttlebus down to the resort. Epic right? LOL
The most stupid thing is that we actually took a round around Vivo and ended back to the exact same place. Plus, u know what? There was actually a 8.45am shuttlebus!!! We could have just waited for that bus! GOSH! =x

HAHA! That's how things started for the first day of work~ xD